Cissi (edtwt’s rotten girl) LOCKED IN

My updated #edtwt intro :3 ✦ Narcisse or Cissi :) ✦ She / they ✦ 19y old ✦ Cw: 272.8lbs ✦ Mia & ana ✦ DNI fatphobes, queerphobes, racists, and any other stupid people. ✦ I love anime (specifically magical girls), I spend most of my time playing Valorant! Music>>>

Going to sleep soon! Good night mooties 💋

It’s finally socks and sandals time of year 🤤🤤 (ignore my wonky knees thanks!)

@mel0n828 I will thx<3

@glittersburning If you want you can dm me about what it’s like going on a weight loss med cus I have a ton of advice and experience and I’ve been through literally the exact same as you.

Finishing my fast!! The food is yummy, btw if you do the same recipe, half a bouillon cube is enough what I used was way too much and the food was too salty !!

@mel0n828 Ikik 😭 it’s just complicated I’ve seen countless psychiatrist and therapist, and I have the will like really, I want to stop that But it’s been like 8+ years of functioning kinda like that, so it really feels like nothing is working

@glittersburning I’m gonna be straight with you you’re never gonna lose the weight and quit the binge eating with what ur doing. I used to do the exact same as u (b/p , restrict and stave) and it just leads you in a toxic gain and lose cycle that will never cure binging at the root.

Just heard someone throw up in my building and realized my neighbors can hear me when I purge

@OdieNdGarfield Saaame

@glittersburning purging always makes me want to take a fat dump and piss so hard the neighbours would think we have a flood

You know what’s great about purging 4 times in less than 2hrs ? It actually made me poop !!! Finally !!! Yay !! 😝😝😝 (Take this as a joke, I’m actually really sick and my stomach hurts bad, don’t follow my steps💋)

@mel0n828 Same OMG my therapist was the worst for BED or mia recov 😭 she used to make me lock my pantry and give the keys to my parents when I lived with them, and it’s really the worst idea, she also made me buy food specifically to binge on it, which just increased my binging habits

@glittersburning I wish there was more eating disorder. Therapists for binge eating it’s kinda rare but really needed! I get all my recovery tips for BED just from trial and error and TikTok videos. I got a therapist before for binge eating but she gave absolutely horrific advice omg never again

Stupid people.

@mel0n828 I wanna ask my doctor but I have to wait bcs in my country it’s too pricy but from next month 65% of the price will be refunded so I will see to try it ngl

@glittersburning Girly I was in the same boat it sucks 😭 I lost 30 lbs, gained 50, lost 10, gained 10 and forever repeated. Once I stopped restricting heavily and got on trizepitide I was able to eat normal and not binge eat while losing fast.

@mel0n828 Couldn’t have said it better !!

@glittersburning The most common ed is binge eating disorder. Some people will never understand it don’t let it get to you :( it’s very shamed and misunderstood. All you can do is build a community of supportive people who don’t judge and encourage you to get better ❤️‍🩹

@mel0n828 A lot of time I keep loosing and gaining back, I actually lost more than 80lbs last year, was like 210 and gained it all back 😭😭😭

@glittersburning Oh okay cus I was like bro😭 how long has it tooken u to lose the 30 lbs?

@le0_642 YAY

@glittersburning Yay!!

Finally under bmi 50 who’s cheering ?!

Honestly sometimes I don’t understand myself, because why am I so scared of irls finding this account but then I say fuck anonymity and just go and use a picture of me as a child and also my real name ????!

@bnnuyplld It looks so yummy !!

cals don’t count with friends ok

when i keep eating even though i’m not hungry and wonder why i’m gaining weight

@clearlynotzen CONGRATS!!

OUT OF THE BMI 30 I REPEAT IM OUT OF THE BMI 30

@averyshedtwt I will !!💋😋

@glittersburning Omg that looks so good, save me a slice

Third item to binge tonight

Okay just finished round 4 of b/p now I have to walk my dogs and I will then evaluate if my body can handle anything more :)

Okay so here’s a list of things I hate to purge 1. Chocolate everything. 2. Cheese 3. Anything that’s bread like 4. Sour or spicy things (burn when I hurt my throat/ knuckles) 5. Eggs