Nobody is coming to save you.
Not your friends. Not your family. Not the government
They can offer advice and tools.
But at the end of the day, it's up to you to change your mind and act regardless of how you feel.
A thread of advice you need to hear:
grief never goes away. the loss of someone’s presence simply becomes easier to accept with time. just because you accept this loss, it doesn’t mean it hurts less. things will remind you of them - it’s okay to cry or feel sad no matter how long it’s been.