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I’ve just wrote a really positive poem about my illness & how much happier I am now #bpd #eupd #recovery

I am so bloody irrational. Basically got so angry & agitated cos I don’t have anything wrong with me. It just feels so incredibly invalidating to have felt so intensely unwell for a week to be told they don’t know why & nothing serious up.

Finally saw doc. No obvious issues. Felt better so discharged myself. Now I’m home. Let’s just hope & prey this is the last of it & whatever caused me to be so ill has gone

So fucked off been waiting to see doc since I got to this ward 12 hours ago. For some reason they didn’t see me on 5 o clock rounds & they don’t have a reason why.

@starryeyes2001 Surgery not for deffo. Depends how they assess it. On surgical assessment unit now & ive got my own room so feeling much more comfortable & feeling better after medication not quite so sick & in pain

@Transformental Oh hell. Well done for being persistant and knowing your body. Glad they've finally caught it. Hope surgery goes well and you heel quickly.

So I’ve got appendicitis. Only took 2 trips to docs & 2 trips to a&e where I was fobbed off with food poisoning when I knew it wasn’t that. Currently waiting to be transferred to surgical assessment unit hooked up to anti biotics & fluids.

@starryeyes2001 I got anti nausea pills Friday. Not working. Had iv anti sickness in a&e Sunday & fluid drip. Felt somewhat better until I woke up this morning & now it won’t go away & nothing is helping

@Transformental Could be a stomach bug. They tend to linger for a while. When i had one recently i was sick once and nauseous for days. Make sure you're drinking plenty of fluids and rest up. If it still doesn't pass think about seeing your gp. They might give you anti nausea pills.

Wondering if twitter could maybe help diagnose me. I just keep getting told it’s food poisoning but I doubt it. Nausea & vomiting for 5 days. Was getting relief from hot showers & hot water bottle but not even that now. No other symptoms not even diarreah

Crying down the phone to 111 & gp receptionist to do something. This is fucking awful. Why have I got so ill again?

@emilyviolettx Nnnnnmnnnnnnn

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It’s been a rough few days feeling so incredibly ill with food poisoning. Feel better since being at hosp yesterday & getting IV anti sickness & a bag of fluid. Still not 100% tho can’t smoke still which says everything. Wanna be back in top shape ASAP cos it’s really annoying

I have been so ill since last night. So I’ll I couldn’t even tweet. Got emergency docs appt. got anti sickness meds. Seem to have improved now after those an hours kip

Had an awesome night last night. Best New Year’s Eve in years! Top night

Booked taxis to the highest point in town, queen Victoria’s jubilee tower to watch the fireworks all over town. So excited. Gonna wrap up warm & Take s few spliffs yo smoke

So I guess the best thing that happened to me this decade is falling in love, being loved & being in a healthy loving relationship. It’s proved one of my strongest core beliefs wrong, I am indeed a lovable person. So thanks to my amazing BF for proving to me I can be loved ❤️ 😘

But best thing that’s happened to me this decade is my BF. I get to see out the decade with my most favourite person in the world & get to start the new decade officially in love. 10 years ago, hell even until very recently I thought I was unlovable & never be in a relationship

I end the decade free from a hospital admission in over a year & a half. Can count on 1 hand the self harm I’ve done this year after beginning the decade with it being a very frequent occurrence. So I guess progress has been made this decade

So I began this decade in a secure psychiatric intensive care unit which was my first ever admission where I was constantly in & out of seclusion & being injected in the bum frequently. I then spent bar the last 1.5 years in & out all over the country going on 40 admissions

@BPDFFS Omg sue that is bloody amazing! Well done you’ve worked so hard & I can’t think of anyone else who deserves it more. Congratulations mate :)

So I got awarded a British Empire Medal in the New Years Honours list I cant quite believe it but am very proud for the work I have done and continue to do for those labelled with ‘personality disorder’

@tranzmental I tried a different way & it was still £9.99 idk why it said £10.99 the first way

@Transformental Just checked my account, still same. Depends what plan your subscribed to??

Wtf when did amazon music go up to £10.99? I’ve had an email from Spotify I can get 3 months for £9.99 as an ex Spotify user before amazon music lured me in cos I have Alexa. But all my recent playlists are on amazon. Fuck streaming sites