lucy .✦ ݁˖

hiiii welcome to my page!! ✦ lucy | 25 | minors dni!!!! edtwt! pro-recov and no fatphobes allowed let’s be mutuals ❤︎⁠

i desperately need a walking pad

sorry for being ia i have major imposter syndrome because i just keep maintaining no matter what i do and i’ve also just been feeling so hopeless about everything in my life and a mental breakdown is for sure imminent

i know i tweet this everyday but this water weight will be the death of me

i’m not even logging my calories on here anymore (i’m just using chowtime) but i feel like maybe the more nonchalant i am the more i’ll lose idk i actually just want to cry

i hate maintaining it makes me feel so invalid and it’s so frustrating i just want to rip my hair out

i really need a metab day and i KNOW they work but the idea of it is just so freaking scary

i think i might just start weighing weekly idk

sorry for not tweeting i’ve fallen into probably the most severe depressive episode i’ve ever had and i’m losing it a little but

i’ve hit a plateau again but i got out of it last time i can do it again!!

truthfully if i just ended it everyone would be so much happier and it would not matter and that’s just factual

i’m very aware i’m annoying i really struggle with needing reassurance over everything and i’m trying so hard to change but i don’t even know

on track to be 120 by the end of the month 🙂‍↕️

back home from my trip and im 125!! AHHH!!!!

sorry for being so ia i’m enjoying my trip but also feel so guilty and disgusting so it’s ruining it for me

my flight attendant randomly handed me all this today (im saving it for later) but it genuinely made my day how nice people can be unprompted 😭😭

cal estimate if i omad what my sister left in the fridge for me?? lmfaoo im guessing 500ish? just a little bit or marinara sauce on top of the noodles

i know weighing myself throughout the day is terrible for my mental health but it’s genuinely a compulsion and everytime i walk in my bathroom i feel like i have to idk

just stepped on the scale and actually started crying . literally gained a pound since before i left for my shift i know it’s just water weight but i can not do this again 😭😭

may 3rd weight: 126.6 intake: 830?? idk. horrible day and i wanted to die after dinner steps: 4.6k bleghhh . omad tomorrow

may 2nd weight: 126.8 intake: 301 steps: 8k i’m ngl haven’t drank water today and i’ve just been sipping on a dr. pepper zero 😭 had my ultimate safe comfort omad tbh. low carb cheese quesadilla with some applesauce and some pirate’s booty. only 300 total!

may accountability ⋆‧°𓏲ּ𝄢