matchagreentea

Since I’ve been away from here I was in a sh00ting incident & im traumatized, going thru a bsf breakup cause she went off on me unprovoked, going through a gf breakup cause she lied & hid shit from me, dads drinking problem is worsening, & bills keep piling up

Think I’ll just drink matcha & do k instead of going out tonight

So. I might just use this as a vent page bcus my mental is so bad. I’m torn btwn getting worse or getting better. I’ve kinda just been eating whatever but I’m gaining & I hate it but I also sort of want to practice self love & feed my body. Idk. I’m really torn

I can’t seem to lock in oh god

At least I found a good 🔌 ..so I got that going for me .-.

I’m such a piece of shit

What do you think my odds are like if I just throw up or if I succeed & d1e

I’m drinking & I’m tempted to take a bunch of pills to see what happens

I’m fcking sad & in shock. He was joking & laughing the last time I saw him. & he had a cat & that poor cat is gonna be so confused wondering where her owner is

One of my coworkers passed away. He sat right across from me. I saw him a couple days ago & now he’s just gone forever

& im basically doing all this alone cause I have no local friends

& then I had to go do the biopsy & that was so embarrassing bcus 4 ppl were in the room looking at my coochie. & they got HELLA UP CLOSE. & that shit hurted too they took like 4 samples. I cried after cause I’m so embarrassed & scared & in pain

I made my body so stressed I started shaking, heart was beating hard, & I was out of breath. Then my eyes started twitching & my hands were tingling. Thought I was gonna pass out

I wanna cry but I can’t get my lashes wet for 24 hrs

I like how my lead gave me a tedious task when he knows I have to leave early today. & idk how to say no so I’m rushing to get it done. & I’m getting rated on it. & I’m already stressed bcus it’s biopsy day

I’m so nervous for my colposcopy uiiggjhh

Trying to decide if I go out this weekend. I already bought tickets to this party but I feel like I don’t deserve to go

I’ll probably come on here to vent tho cause I’m going crazy & need somewhere to vent

I’m still alive I’ve just been overeating & I’m embarrassed. I’m gonna try to lock in & come back soon. Ty for not unfollowing

I’m on my period & I have a uti & tonsillitis (AGAIN) k1ll me