Maria 💋edtwt & venttwt 💋

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I got drunk and dropped too much of my brain on him and now i can’t stop thinking about what’s on my mind. I can’t turn it off like normal.

I fucking give up. He always fucking pushes off me hanging out with him. There’s always a last minute reason. Im tired of having to beg him to hang out with me. Im sick and tired of him. He just makes me feel like crap at this point.

Me on my way to write in my journal about how i still haven’t figured out how to communicate my feelings for the 53926492018463 time!

He just today caught on that im annoyed at him.

I SWEAR TO GOD THIS MAN MAKES ME FURIOUS. EVERY TIME IM DAMN NEAR OVER HIM HE HAS TO DO SOMETHING TO REMIND ME I STILL WANT HIM.

ALL FUCKING YEAR I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO AVOID HIS DRUNK ASS HAVING HIS DEEP ASS TALKS WITH ME DIRECTLY AND TONIGHT AFTER A GREAT ASS DAY I CANT??? I DONT WANT TO HEAR YOU KEEP SAYING HOW IT WAS ALMOST ME. I DONT WANT YOUR STUPID REMINDER OF HOW IM NOT THE FIRST CHOICE.

I miss when i had someone i knew would be excited to see me. When i wasn’t the only one asking to hang out. I miss people asking me to hang out.

Fuck all of them.