britt🌻

the side eye was so nasty😭

shane should’ve collared him right here are we kidding.

if ilya rozanov purred “such a good trick” in my face and then kissed me like i was ancient valuable porcelain to be handled with utmost tenderness and care and then proceeded to ghost me for 6 months i would kill him with a hammer

what if everything goes wrong at the cottage? because after almost ten years of whatever shane and ilya are, after the rivalry and the hotel rooms and the lying and the coming back to each other every single time, shane finally says it. just after sex, when everything is quiet and ilya is still close enough that shane lets himself believe, for one stupid second, that maybe this is safe. shane says “i love you.” and ilya freezes. and not because he doesn’t love him. that’s the worst part… he does. he loves shane so much it terrifies him. so much that hearing it out loud feels like someone just put a knife in his hands and told him not to drop it. because the second the words are real, the second they exist in the room, it’s not just sex anymore. not just rivalry. not just their secret. not just something they can hide behind closed doors and pretend doesn’t matter when morning comes. it becomes something shane can ask for. something ilya has to choose. something he can lose. so he panics. and says nothing. shane waits. one second too long. two seconds too long. long enough to understand that silence is still an answer. then he goes quiet in that awful way people go quiet when something inside them finally breaks cleanly. no screaming. no begging. no trying to make ilya say it back. he just gets dressed, looks at him one last time, and says: “okay.” the next morning, ilya wakes up alone. shane is gone. all he leaves is a note saying he meant what he said, but he can’t keep doing this after almost ten years. he can’t keep letting ilya have him in hotel rooms, in secret, in the dark, in every way except the one that matters. he tells him he hopes everything works out with the league, with the life ilya keeps choosing instead of him. but he needs ilya to leave him alone now. they’ll see each other on the rink and nowhere else. and ilya has to sit there in the empty cottage, holding the note, realizing he lost shane without ever once meaning to let him go.

just read a fic where shane d*ed because of the hit from marleau and do you ever just think about the fact that if that really happened the last thing he would have ever done was smiling at ilya

little ilya lying down beside his mom’s body for hours slowly realizing that she is never coming back and deciding to take her necklace before his father can take away the last piece of her he had left :(

Whatever you do…do NOT look at the pain and confusion on Ilya’s face when he realizes Shane was avoiding his kisses on purpose

If hollanov did this trend to each other how do you think they would react cuz I’m laughing my ass off