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lee
@leebpd
don’t perceive me 🧊🔨🌈✨ actually perceive me pls | bpd/vent/virtual journal twt | trying to recover
21 any pronouns انضم Kasım 2022
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@Rachologys @pnkdiamnd i didn’t block anyone, i privated my account because i got overwhelmed
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@pnkdiamnd @leebpd They blocked me but I’m using your comment lol suicide ideas are selfish period. It’s an inability to regulate emotions and they’re a MANY strategies out there for helping cope with big emotions! This person would rather wallow in their own pity I fear
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@pnkdiamnd @Rachologys i know it wouldn’t be my fault but i still don’t want her to die
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@leebpd @Rachologys what she does to herself is her own choice. i’m saying this with love. as someone who’s been suicidal & has dealt with mental illness since the age of 7, we are all only responsible for our own selves
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@WinterNotTheSzn i might wanna delete i kept it up bc some people were genuinely saying stuff that helped even tho it wasn’t my intention of the tweet but like idk i don’t want this to get worse
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holy shit this blew up i’m scared to look at the comments 😭
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AGHHH she’s so dry this morning and i hate that it affects me sm i hate it and i also want to be mad about it even though i logically know it’s really stupid
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@leebpd You seem like a kind and generous partner. Please remember to take care of yourself too ♥️
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@leebpd I getchu, it's a really hard situation to be in for both of you, I just hope you aren't feeling too much guilt around it bc I know personally when my partner isn't doing well in that regard, it's really easy to feel like it's my fault even when logically I know it isn't 💙
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@leebpd Ik it’s easier said than done, trust me. If I got those messages 5yrs ago I would’ve tried ending myself that moment.. but after years and years of hard work I was able to make it to the other side where it doesn’t affect me as much.
There’s hope :)
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@nowthethingis__ she’s not on twitter and i don’t think there’s any way she’d find this otherwise i wouldn’t post it but i appreciate your concern
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@leebpd Hun, if she finds out your posting her messages it’s gonna end bad :(
It might be nothing or it might be something. No matter what both possibilities are true if u don’t ask. If asking would make her leave, then why would u wanna stay in something so shaky
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@TelseeJanelle @bishmart ur right ur right, maybe being neutral leaning a bit to positive would be better thank you
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@leebpd @bishmart Does it generally work to meet her deep depression with “:D”? Some people might call that toxic positivity, though you obviously know her better than I do. It seems a little performative and maybe that could be why she’s feeling distant and dry? Maybe more chill and less “:D!!!”
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@Rachologys i understand that some people may use their suicidality to manipulate but i don’t believe that it is her intention. it still has really mentally taxing affects on me and is unhealthy for me absolutely but she is genuinely suicidal, not just saying it to manipulate me
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@capturedkitsune just to be clear i don’t agree with that at all. i completely acknowledge that i was overreacting and was just venting about it. i logically know she is going through it and it’s not personal
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on bpd twitter ur not allowed to have bad mornings or else they'll call u an abuser
lee@leebpd
AGHHH she’s so dry this morning and i hate that it affects me sm i hate it and i also want to be mad about it even though i logically know it’s really stupid
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@anxiousgirl01 i didn’t post this to solve anything, my account is a vent account and i really post it for that purpose, just to vent and get stuff out so i don’t feel like i’m bottling everything up inside. my tweets do NOT usually blow up like that and i wasn’t intending for that
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@NiggaKsante it’s a vent account. i’ve never had a post get this much attention and was not expecting it. i feel really alone sometimes and it helps to just get stuff out
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genuinely what are niggas hoping to achieve with posts like this?
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AGHHH she’s so dry this morning and i hate that it affects me sm i hate it and i also want to be mad about it even though i logically know it’s really stupid
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@Zenithiya well, she currently thinks nothing matters in the world. i feel so horrible. nothing i do helps
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@leebpd Not to excuse the behaviour in any way, but out of curiosity, did things improve later in the day? Just wondering if not having taken the Abilify yet may have had an impact? I know not having taken my Wellbutrin yet or when my Abilify wears off at night it's harder to communicate
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@WinterNotTheSzn honestly considering deleting it i don’t want to go to bed and it like quadruple in comments
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@leebpd mute the tweet i fear everyone on this app is miserable and annoying
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@fagisnotonfire thank u sm 😭 and dw dw i assumed you were more referring to the comments but wanted to clarify
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@leebpd NO SHADE TO YOU ALL LOVE im talking about the comments calling you or her evil i Get. how being in a relationship like this can be (im Exactly. like this when i'm in a depressive episode) i hope ur doing alright
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the government plants posts like this to make all avoidants kill themselves
lee@leebpd
AGHHH she’s so dry this morning and i hate that it affects me sm i hate it and i also want to be mad about it even though i logically know it’s really stupid
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@autistyuri you’re right you’re right. i should probably stop reading them at least for a while, it’s definitely a lot and i’m already going through a lot. thank you for these kind words
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@goofygoobem yeah i’m
a bit overwhelmed i don’t think i’ve ever had a tweet blow up this much on here, was not expecting it 😭
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