elléa

out of fear is just rejecting yourself before anyone else even gets the chance..now, i'd rather risk the sting of a 'no' than the endless ache of wondering what could have been.. because at the end of the day, a bruised ego heals much faster than a missed connection..

someone once told me it's better to have tried than to live with the 'what ifs.' i used to be so terrified of reaching out and facing rejection.. it felt safer to stay hidden behind my own walls where no one could turn me away. but i'm starting to realize that choosing silence —

@FATALWOES seven hells.. you and me eris, i feel youu! every time i think i’m caught up on the new slang, they invent ten more words...

@mstycpetals ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ oh gods. in my own understanding, it is basically a loser.. I could potentially be very wrong, I still do not understand this new age of youth.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ it is surely silent in the village of oomfs.. but here I am. for my decree, I have messaged everyone whom has come forth. I must now fight the urge to hide in the shadows, socializing is intense for me..

@FATALWOES if you're a relic, then i'm prehistoric, because i have absolutely no idea what 'chud' means either... 🥹

@mstycpetals ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ none of their foolery. their drunken mishaps, anything. I flourish alone. oh please, I fear you may be right of me being a relic.. just two moons ago, I learned what chud meant.

⤷ 𖥻 — .☘︎ ݁˖ trying not to look too obvious about daydreaming between setups.. can’t wait to see the final cuts from this shoot..

@FATALWOES fortunate indeed eris, no arrogant lords to serve.. a shame, i find it endearing to call you 'ser' but if it makes you feel like a relic 🤭 /lh, i should honor the request..

@mstycpetals ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ then how fortunate I am not like many other men. please, you may call me Eris. being called ser makes me feel as if I am ancient these days.. pleased to make your acquaintance, what a lovely name you have, Ellèa.

@FATALWOES i must admit, ser eris, it is highly unusual to meet a knight sworn only to themselves.. i only know of men your station bound to their lord's banner.. however, it is a pleasure to make your acquaintance.. my name is elléa..

@mstycpetals ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I am sworn to myself now. gods above, hell below and many houses that approach no longer have power. I am merely a spectator, a higher rank to a hedge knight.

nobody is purely good or entirely evil. in the real world, we all hurt people while trying to heal ourselves. we aren't villains or heroes; we are just flawed humans navigating the messy space between right and wrong..