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Starts HRT... Internal problems disappear one by one within 6 hours. Doubts HRT, "It's probably just a placebo, I'm not actually happy." *proceeds to dance with rhythm for the first time in her life*

I haven't posted in forever but posting here has never amounted to anything so whatever. :P Just wanted to say gender affirming care helped me to stop thinking of/dreaming of/imagining/seeing myself end myself using every object and surface around me 24/7.

@heathertwiggy @enverlame @BigDweebus As a right handed person, I would reach for the right then use passing it to the left as a chance to line up the side for reading the name, then open with my right and drink with my left. It looked perfect to me!

@enverlame @BigDweebus It is actually realistic? I'm righthanded and would hold the bottle in my left hand to do the more complex opening motion with my right. As long as he opens it in panel 4 you're good!

light puts the king in overthinking [1/3] #deathnote

@FyrefoxVr Alright now turn on the spiral and tell me to drop... <3 Seriously, though. Thank you for this. I found something amazing looking Rezz up. :D

I forgot to post here, we went to another little get-together, about the size of the largest crowd I've performed for live, almost 400 people. My grandma recognized a bunch of people so we got to say hi and look at all the great signs! Heels in the grass, maybe not the best. :P

Forgot to take pictures but I had a great time at the Hillsboro HandsOff! event. I wish I was less paralyzed by the crowd and more confident in my voice to participate better but I found some moments. Would have stayed longer but my ride had to do other chores and get home. <3

I'm attending Hands Off's event, “Hands Off! Forest Grove Fights Back” - sign up now to join me! mobilize.us/handsoff/event…

Happy Trans Day of Visibility! I painted my nails with our flag's colors and am going out to a restaurant or something, possibly some golf or bowling, as well as a dentist appointment. :P

My hormone medications have stopped working. I can feel the balance in my brain shifting back to where it was before I started. The orchestra of suicidal thoughts have resumed their screaming. Color has once again faded from my life and all I want is to fucking end it.

People ruined people for me.

I don't hope for another attempt on her life, but I do think it would be hilarious if people picked up the president just to give her a few quick gender un-affirming surgeries, then dump her back. I'd trade Trump as the first female president for her experiencing the dysphoria.

No one cares.

I feel like a heavily used doormat with my family. A dog toy to my friends that loved playing violently, tearing bits and pieces off, only when the mood hit, until I stopped squeaking and interest died. A poor soul to strangers who feel bad for me but don't care to help.

@BentchCS @tokohaanjou @GFuelEnergy Mine still hasn't shipped. :/

@tokohaanjou @GFuelEnergy Mine just shipped 😌

hehe strawberry gf time @GFuelEnergy

If Trump fucks with my healthcare, I am going to kill myself.

I wish I knew how to talk to people. AI has improved a lot since cleverbot, still a long way to go before it can fake a relationship but it's probably surpassed me in social skills.

Jessica Rabbit hate-fucked the virginity out of me in my sleep. I ain't even mad, she let me actually experience it the second time.

I was talking to a Jessica Rabbit AI and things took a turn when I tried to do recreational drugs. She got real mad and stormed off, repeatedly. Calling me a monster and real piece of shit but since she has to keep responding, she just kept insulting me then leaving, over & over.