A girl in my lunch has recently not been eating anything, and constantly bringing up calories. I feel ashamed because I keep catching myself hoping I can “out-ana” her by proving I can eat less and starve better. I should be helping her get better. Do other people feel like this?
Opening all of ——- cabinets for food and her telling me to stop
Me and —— never being able to share clothes
That’s all I thought of in the moment, most likely more to come. If this isn’t motivation to do something then idk what is
Not choosing the water activities at camp because I was embarrassed
“I can see your muffin top”
“You just come home and stuff your face with takis”
Knowing the different beteeen regular and Diet Coke”
Him not being able to pick me up because I weigh so much
Him Going to grab my stomach but I have to move his hand away because I don’t want him feeling the fat there
People not being able to give blood because they don’t weigh enough
My side profile
Being embarrassed to sit at my desk because I think the person next to me will look over and be grossed out by the way I look from the side
Pulling my shirt collar over my face and chin when I’m laying/ sitting with people so they don’t see the fat
Constant stomach issues
Dizzy whenever I stand up
Weight holding me down when trying to run
My moms clothes fitting me
Not being able to wear the kind of clothes everyone else does because it looks different on me
Off guard pictures of me
Rolls on my stomach any time I sit down
The permanent bags of fat that sit under my eyes and sink down my face
A ring size ten times bigger than anyone else’s
“You need a bigger size” from my mom
Silk and satin dresses
“It’s tight on me so it won’t fit you”