Pax🔟

Im ready to move forward in my life

It amazes me that someone thinks they do absolutely no wrong and cannot acknowledge that they need help too

I pray no one has to go thru what I dealt with

I just wanna be loved

Right around Thanksgiving, ill be in a completely better spot. Mentally, physically and most importantly spiritually

Lessons learned

Never wanted to have my kids grow up like I did but they’ll understand when theyre older

Damn mane a month before we wouldve hit 5 years smh

Ill never be able to make decisions for myself lmao

Damn I couldn’t even get that w em smh

Literally told both my older kids how much I couldn’t wait to sleep in my bed tn & they that they both could sleep w me tn

But really what it is, is that they’re surprised that im actually taking up for myself and putting myself first, rather than shut out and do any and everything they say. Like they tell me all this and when I respond back with anything other than what they wanted to hear im wrong

Idk why people don’t understand that im gonna make decisions based off how im gonna feel like im putting myself first for once in my life & boyyyyy they dont like that

Like all the joy of life ive had had been sucked out of me

& I honestly feel like im not myself anymore

At the end of the day, I feel like I cannot do anything or say anything that focuses on me. I feel like I havent been able to make decisions for myself or do anything for myself without it being a problem for someone else

I truly feel like im “not allowed” to have any opinion about anything and cannot do anything of my liking and can only move and do thing’s considering how someone else will feel about said decision made

I truly feel like I cannot show any emotion other than being happy bc its gonna be an issue to someone else. Im tired of feeling like I have to watch my every move and anytime I say bc the next person will not be okay with that

@peytonr2799 Ik it was a shitty day to be a Bama fan jit lmaoooo

Omg what the fuck was that 🤦🏻‍♂️Vanderbilt!?!?

Mockingbird hitting rn