Waiting between worlds

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Probably makes me boring but at this point pretty much all I want is to be the bedrock emotionally, financially, everything for a sweet girl and all I want in return is appreciation

can someone explain the psychology behind hating myself but loving characters that are like me

What's a home?

what doesnt kill you makes you wish it did because now you lost that spark in your eyes and dont know who you are anymore

@callanable I only like a tiny amount. But a tiny amount is surprisingly good. I avoided it as a kid because of the naming implications as well

I can’t believe sour cream is good. the name makes me think it won’t be. but it is

Sometimes I look back at my childhood and yea there’s no way I was ever going to turn out normal there was just no way

@xozmbie I'm 27 and in an identical boat to you, really. Better part of a decade of back to back betrayals of those closest to me, severe injuries and irreversible health issues, repeated nukes to my life by sheer happenstance, the works. If you want to discuss with someone you can DM me.

like genuinely what the fuck am i supposed to do anymore. i’m 26. i no longer have any goals or ambitions. i was exhausted from years of back to back traumatic events + now that everything’s settled, i just don’t care anymore. i don’t care about myself or a job or finding-

whats the meta for finding a girlfriend nowadays

@LamoralOfEgmont @saguaro_ghost Scholar's consensus view of Christianity is that early Christians did not believe Jesus was god incarnate and that this was a later invention around the 200s. There is actually not really any evidence that Jesus himself ever claimed to be God, at least he was never clear about it

@TalchionDalias @saguaro_ghost God showing up as a human being is a pretty clear effort to give you logical proof, and is what separates Christianity from other religions. Many alive at that time still didn't believe, but many did, proving that not all can have faith regardless of evidence.

when i hear a guy say "I kinda grew up Christian, but I don't go to church, I just don't really see a need for it."

@LamoralOfEgmont @saguaro_ghost Yes, I am not like most atheists who find the idea of a prescribed meaning of life abhorrent. If I were convinced a moral god existed I would be fine and comforted knowing what the rule book was to follow.

@TalchionDalias @saguaro_ghost Your bio implies that belief in God would answer your desire to be a cog in a machine serving something beyond you. I pray you find what you're looking for. Have a happy Resurrection Sunday.

@LamoralOfEgmont @saguaro_ghost This still has the epistemic problem I described before. If god is omniscient and designed me, then he designed me knowing my need for logical proof and inability for religious faith, ergo he designed a test he set me up to fail for. If you're Calvinist I guess that'd make sense.

@TalchionDalias @saguaro_ghost The best explanation will still never be enough if you're looking for "proof." That's where faith comes in. Asking for eyes to see, if there's a God, will lead to faith if you earnestly desire it. Jesus' disciples only saw Him work by following Him, so follow Him and you will too

@LamoralOfEgmont @saguaro_ghost If this force or God wants people to know it exists, it wouldn't hide or make it's religion look no different from the rest of the false ones. There's no reason someone like myself who wants to believe and has searched for a reason to would not find said God if he wanted me to.

@TalchionDalias @saguaro_ghost Many creatures survive just fine without higher brain function and morality. So, if there's a purpose and a pre-existent force, would this force want us to know it exists? If so, then the next step is to go looking for the best explanation.

@LamoralOfEgmont @saguaro_ghost tinkerer, not a designer. If you don't need or use it, you lose it. It would benefit us to have wings and fly, but we don't need it so we don't have it. (3/3

@LamoralOfEgmont @saguaro_ghost It's beyond my paygrade to explain in a tweet by there have been studies done that show morality benefits eusocial species as a whole even if it doesn't always benefit the individual. Just because some species don't need it doesn't mean it wouldn't be helpful, evolution is a(2/3)

@LamoralOfEgmont @saguaro_ghost This question will likely never be answered as all our tools of science break down at the moment of the singularity, since best we can tell time itself began with it. There is no "before" the singularity any more than there is a "before" the first inch on a ruler. (3/3)

@LamoralOfEgmont @saguaro_ghost their mind with it. And no, there is no established scientific consensus regarding the beginning of the universe other than that there was a beginning (in a sense). There are many hypothesises, including some forms of "recurrent" universe that would in a sense be eternal. (2/?)