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hello guys✨ i decided to leave twitter for good. my acc will remain but i'm not gonna post art here anymore. my main focus will be bluesky and insta from now. visit my carrd to find me on other platforms: anpanjay.carrd.co ☁️ find me in my dreams ☁️

@Sleixz Hey! I answered you in DMs but I'm not sure if you were able to see it. Weirdly I didn't get a notification for this qrtwt from Twitter but well.

I'm interested but I cannot DM you. Can you send me a DM? :)

this felt like ripping my heart out. nice.

i'm gonna delete ALL of my artworks in here that i can find. my account will still remain but i can't let my illustrations stay in this fuxxing shithole.

“ppl are acting like ai is killing ppl” boy do i have news for you

unpopular opinion in a lot of your spaces but i think it’s actually very good to unstan & disengage from celebrities who are showing themselves to be morally bankrupt and endorsing products and brands that are actively harming marginalised & oppressed populations across the globe

& it hurts that their "biggest voice" doesn't seem to be heard anymore. that ami are turning against each other without giving any space to constructively communicate. that's not the fandom i came to admire, that wanted to be as good as the seven people they loved in unification.

no, i don't think joon is now writing his lyrics with ai. no, i don't think that tae wants people in 🍉 to be unalived. but at some point their carelessness influences people to normalize what shouldn't be. i see it on the timeline everyday.+

when you have this big of an influence, audience, impact, you know what one single tag or collab can do. they know. tae knew when he collabed with cola, joon knew when he tagged openai. for me it's not that they need to be flawless, they are human after all.+

tells you a lot if i have to come here into this forsaken place again to make room for my feelings haha,,

it had me admire them, their strength, their hope for a better world. i came to love them as artists and the part of their personalities they let us in to and with that i tried my hardest to do better myself but now i'm stuck in this strange foggy dim lit room without a way out.

i remember when i wasn't army yet but saw the huge positive impact they had and all i learned about them was of the will to become better people and raise their voices against social and political issues. it wasn't always big gestures, but it all resonated with me.

and you can't even engage in serious conversations about the topic within the fandom because they will just tell you to unstan... like woah it must be nice to have the emotional and moral depth of a kids pool

finding my own post just now while searching for "bts palestine". it's been over a year since and so many more things happened, i don't know how to deal with this and i feel genuinely torn.

@frndvmin I DOOOOO but yknow i mean i wanna listen to the over chrome songs, i really liked those as well! but did the actors rlly do all of the songs???? bc i can't find an ost but tenblank as an artist 🥺 maybe i should dive back into my old j-rock groups bc i'm YEARNING

@anpanjay LISTEN TO STOP THE RAIN!!!

UGHHHH HIM

@frndvmin OMG EXACTLY WITH THE YOONGI 😭😭😭😭 like he's kinda detached but then you see just how much he cares and is such a softie. i'd die for him 😞

@anpanjay you get me ALL TOO WELL! kazushi has an incredible storyline like he softened his heart and sho reminds me of yoongs too much i think, like i wholeheartedly believe yoongi was the blueprint for sho! AND the music is just wow! ngl it reminds of DAY6 japanese releases!!!

@frndvmin i found myself clutching my heart whenever kazushi looked at akane with longing eyes 😭😭😭😭

@anpanjay it touched me too,, i began to watch cause of takeru sato cause i adored him in first love, there's this glint in eyes i can't get over!! so was excited to see him acting plus producing as well but after completing the series i must admit somehow these TWO stole my heart!!!