britt🌻

ilya was already mad about ANYBODY texting Shane and him smiling like “who the fuck is texting you??” but then for it to be ROSE??? you’re in danger, girl 😂😂

if ilya looked at me like this, i’d move in. “stay here tonight” nah i’m staying forever FUCK THAT. which side of the closet is mine???

ilya carrying with a whole team on his back while dealing with depression…… trying to make them win and he just couldn’t because he wasn’t even able to believe in himself

not with a hammer 😂😂😂

GUYS????? this has to be the fucking upside down

connor storrie really is the perfect ilya rozanov because you look at him and you’re like oh yes. i can see why ilya was north america’s community dick & why he pulled everyone he wanted. why shane hollander was ready to risk it all

@frenchudcon crying in the fucking club bro 😭😭😭😭😭

so ilya is forty and starts forgetting things. small things at first. names, dates, why he walked into a room and then bigger things. years of his career going blurry, pieces of boston, the league and his own life slipping out of reach. and because his father had dementia, ilya knows exactly what kind of fear is waiting for him. then one day while going through old boxes, he finds one hidden in the back of a closet with a note written in russian in his own handwriting: if you found this, it means you already started forgetting. open it. inside are photos, letters, tickets, pieces of a life he does not remember saving. pictures of him young, holding the stanley cup, smiling in places that should mean something. and then… pictures of a man. dark haired, beautiful, laughing beside him, wearing ilya’s #81 jersey, sleeping against his shoulder, looking at him like ilya was home. on the back of one photo, it says: shane and i <3 but ilya does not remember him. not his voice or his laugh. not the way his hand felt. absolutely nothing. but his body does because the second he sees shane’s face, his chest breaks open and he starts crying before he even understands why then he finds the letters he wrote to himself before the forgetting got too bad: his name is shane hollander. you loved him he was the love of your life. you left him when you realized you were getting sick because you thought disappearing would hurt less than making him watch you disappear slowly. it was fear. it was the worst thing you ever did. and ilya realizes he did not just forget shane. he left him first. he loved him, he ruined him, abandoned him without the truth and then forgot him so completely that the only proof left is a box full of memories his own mind erased. the last letter only says: if you remember nothing else, remember this. you loved shane hollander. find him if you can. tell him if you can. and if it is too late, spend whatever is left of you knowing the best part of your life had his name and then ilya wakes up. not forty anymore, not sick and not alone on the floor with shane’s photos in his hands he is nineteen again. in a hotel room he does not recognize, staring at a young face in the mirror, before boston, before the league, before the cup, before shane, before every mistake he has not made yet. but he still remembers the box he remembers the letters he remembers crying over a man his mind had erased. not everything comes back clearly. he does not remember every kiss, every fight, every word. but he remembers enough to know that somewhere out there is the boy he is going to love more than anything and hurt worse than anyone. and this time, ilya has to find him before he becomes a regret. this time he has to say it before the silence wins. because he has already lived through a world where he forgot shane once… he is not losing him twice.

WHAT THE FUCK???? I’M NOT CRAZY YALL THE TIMELINE IS ON ONE TODAY WHAT IS HAPPENING

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HERE IS ANOTHER ONE??? WHAT IS GOING ON????

hi can we bring this back to the tl

what is going on with my timeline today???? are we all fucking depressed today or what??? WHAT IS HAPPENING????

@whimsyhollanov hi mags. britt here. nice to meet you! your username is a lie bc this isn’t whimsical AT ALL

not to make things big sad but how long do you think ilya sat there on his couch, hand outstretched, wondering what he did wrong :(((((

and neither the fuck did i

No other actor could’ve brought Ilya Rozanov to life the way Connor Storrie did. Every bit of praise and recognition he’s receiving from both the industry and the gp is absolutely deserved

i’m jumping from the nearest bridge i am JUMPING FROM THE NEAREST BRIDGE

they are both crashing the fuck out LMAO Ilya would immediately start arguing 😂 Shane would get up and walk away 😂

this post sex chirp was YEARS in the making i can just tell. that smile oh he was so proud 😭

ATE THAT ONE LITTLE THING

No caption needed.

thaw #hollanov