may .𖥔 ݁ edtwt🤍

i’ve eaten over 2k cals every day for all of april i genuinely think i have bed or something i can’t stop eating

@metempsykhos_s i’ve wasted so many years 🫠

@mayneeds2starve LITERALLY SO TRUE like how many times did i tell myself i would be at my gw by this age??? i hate feeling like this cycle is all there will ever be

knowing i’ll never be 16-18 at my lw in my honeymoon phase again and now im just 20 and fat and sad is actually destroying me

genuinely only a bmi pt away from being a healthy weight holy shit i hate myself why did this happen why did i let this happen

i’ve gained sm it makes me sick idk why i can’t stop fucking eating

YAYYY

ok i kind of killed it today

walk/ran a 5k this morning b4 work

i need to relapse i can’t cope with being an adult

@dxllybxdy omfg thank you this makes me feel sm better🫶🫶🫶 i think im low 17s right now but im not sure

@mayneeds2starve you look really small im guessing bmi 15-16?

missing an-r right now idek what is happening to me

i’m so fat like actually i just keep fucking eating and gaining and idek what to do

i need to start fasting again or smth cuz j can’t stand to be my current weight anymore

realistically i just want to lose 5-8 more lbs and maintain high 15s/low 16s cause i need to be strong enough to work and have enough energy for school but for some fucking reason i can’t force myself to lose the last 5-8 lbs and i just maintain high 16s/low 17s insead

@ana_somniac thank you😓🫶

@mayneeds2starve Yes, you do not have to accept things as they are. Don’t subject yourself to the same misery for the rest of your life; just because you “wasted” several years, doesn’t mean you have to waste the rest

i’m so scared of what i’m doing to myself everything is wrong i’ve wasted so much life is there any way to redeem myself at this point

i’ve definitely gained back to bmi 17s but i’m too scared to check

thx for playing, i need to make some light out of this because im genuinely so devastated i relapsed with binging. its so difficult and embarrassing but i hope this was a fun poll😀

brownie batter barebells or lemon cheesecake barebells? my pick: brownie batter

this or that food poll for edtwt things that i’ve binged on the past 2 days