🍎💫🍏beecee 🍏💫🍎 tw relapse ):

hi im beecee - i ended my recov in may after 7 months of recovery, am now relapsing - looking for #edtwtㅤ moots - pro recov and anti-fatphobic ofc (: - i love invader zim - feel free to ask for a follow back!! 🍏🍎🍏🍎

@problematicd0ll tysm ❤️❤️

@rawring_rexia girl, ur stomach is flat, ur so thinspo dw <3

I love baby dolls it’s just too bad they make my stomach look fat as fuck 😭😭

@fushisauce honestly trendsetter

@rawring_rexia i dont know but it needs to stop

how does my mom always make me look like an obese cryptid in 20% of her photos dawg it looks like my ass got put on backwards

@adoredbyamora @pinkhaired_cass -but I think it’s more so about that there’s just more volume in the drinks compared to like a chocolate bar, like it’s physically filling yk. but idk i just find I eat just fine if half my intake was a sugary drink that day yk?

@adoredbyamora @pinkhaired_cass and as for sugary drinks (not sodas) i just like them because they’re basically just foods to me?? my guess was that a lot of the times drinks with like a milk base often have high amounts of fat, but the same can apply to chocolate and whatnot and I rarely get full on chocolate-

can u tell me your unconventional safe food? mine is peanut butter

instead of winter depression does anyone get summer depression and the heat drives you even more crazy

I wish I was one of those people who was able to walk like 40k steps everyday

I yearn to be her again tho

Or maybe my stomach is genuinely just fat as hell or something

Pray to god this disorder kills me this time

I’m still fat for edtwt standards though 😭😭😭 I need to be at least like bmi 16.9

@basedrexic mind you she looks cute as fuck

truly blackpilling fatspo it doesn't matter how fashionable you are, it doesn't matter how much you plan, if you're not skinny the outfit won't look good, simple as

I should have just weighed myself at my lw I was probably in the bmi 16s but I was convinced I was genuinely fucking overweight

Still feel fat as fuck

Kind of sucks though how half of me wants to gain weight so I can actually have an ass 😭😭 wtv

I need to lose weight definitely though. Gbmi 17 this summer maybe?

Well I went to the doctor and I’m bmi 17.6 🥹🥹 I’m so happy I thought I was gonna be healthy weight again

i hope to post more. i feel fake Ana for admitting this but i hope this relapse is short ): just wanna be in recov again