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@thewindowwithin
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( her smile draws up a bit. )
i meant psychiatric medication, but that still answers my question.
speaking of your work, do you find that to be the source of the problems you’re struggling with? it’s okay if you don’t know that.
— 𝐽𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑉𝑖𝑐𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑒.@_devilonhisback
( he has to ration them, sometimes. ) yes. regular doses of ibuprofen and plenty of exercise, but that last one's a given. police work, you know. x.com/i/status/20626…
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@amorymortem ( a quiet hum of acknowledgment. she did know. she wouldn’t forget a time lost stranger, either. )
that sounds good, actually. something familiar.. ( a moment of hesitation.. and then taking xena’s hand. a soft, shaky sigh of relief. )
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@thewindowwithin I think we both know I'm gonna have to fake it. (shrugging, she walks to the nearest shop just to get something quick to eat.) seven eleven it is. c'mon.
(she holds out her hand, letting mary hold her if she needs to)
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even therapists need some help. (her tone is soft, she stops on another red light.) do you want me to leave you at a bus station or...?
⿻ th͟r͟o͟ugh the ͟p͟ane@thewindowwithin
( grounding. see, touch, hear, *smell.. ) that’s—.. i’d appreciate that. it goes both ways. i’m a therapist, so it’s what i’m good at.
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@amorymortem ( she’s beyond grateful that xena does the talking, as she’s shaking just handing the money over. )
… i told you it’s better that you forget about me. ( it’s not a no. if xena led her along, she’d accept it. )
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@thewindowwithin (eventually they reach the ticket window and xena tells the woman behind it the destination. she lets mary pay and, of course, they now walk to the gate.) wait... the bus leaves in like- an hour. let's get lunch? I won't see you again, so... might as well.
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( her smile stays polite, expression intrigued. )
something plenty of people deal with, even handle. are you medicated? there’s no wrong answer for that, it’s just for documentation.
— 𝐽𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑉𝑖𝑐𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑒.@_devilonhisback
yes, the head doctors called me a *medical anomaly.* ( quotation marks here, some sarcasm there. a notably unfunny topic that the lieutenant is making light of. ) to keep a long story short, the official diagnosis was: clinical depression. x.com/thewindowwithi…
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@amorymortem access to. she stands close to the other woman instinctively, for whatever peace it brings her. )
…i hope so, too.
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@amorymortem ( she accepts them, of course, and squeezes her hands over xena’s as she does; more emphasis of just how grateful she is. ) thank you.
( she doesn’t bother objecting—she would definitely get lost when the busses probably run on some electronic schedule she doesn’t have ——
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@amorymortem despite the pit of selfish regret in her stomach. )
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@amorymortem i *didn’t. ( emphasized with desperation, and followed by silence from her for the rest of the ride. )
… i’m—sorry, could i, um.. just, borrow a few dollars from you for the bus? ( as if they’re going to see each other again. she really hopes they don’t for xena’s sake, ——
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it’s just some reorganizing. i’ve had to start a new filing system.
𝑬ɢᴏ 𝘿ᴇᴀᴛʜ (contains spoilers)@ULTERlORMOTIVE
you’re already my therapist, don’t need another file.
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@imagedguilt yes. right. and hoping a little light gets shed.
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@thewindowwithin hey— hey. uh, it’s alright. we’re all in the dark here, right?
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trying is good. dedication over time is good, too. have you tried therapy in the past, then?
— 𝐽𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑉𝑖𝑐𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑒.@_devilonhisback
already covered that step like.... three, maybe *four* different times? putting one foot forward, all that stuff -- i don't feel any different. x.com/thewindowwithi…
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@amorymortem ( too obvious. as they start moving, she squeezes her eyes shut to minimize exposure and panic. )
i just.. need you to try. or pretend you did, if anyone comes asking … i’m really sorry. you shouldn’t be caught up in this.
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@thewindowwithin forget-... I don't think I can do that. (still, she starts the engine, driving away from the coffee shop. it was obvious now: the signs, the way people dressed, the cars...)
it's not far, so...
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nothing that can’t be tackled with the right mindset. the moment you believe change is possible, you’ve already begun.
— 𝐽𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑉𝑖𝑐𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑒.@_devilonhisback
that's going to be a *real* can of worms, doc. just to give you the heads up. x.com/thewindowwithi…
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@amorymortem and do i *look seventy? ( a little harsher than she means to. she takes several more breaths before looking back over to her. )
i just need a bus stop. and i need you to forget that you saw me. okay?
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@thewindowwithin the window... wait. (she types on her phone, then stares at the other woman, back to the screen.) well, shit. it *is you... but you should be like... seventy something.
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@imagedguilt i… know. i’m sorry, i do this all the time to you, don’t i? i hope whatever you get up to today.. helps.
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@thewindowwithin my hands are tied here, mary. seriously. it’s not personal.
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languages. if you find one i need you to stay by it.
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very normal. i get the same feeling in there. but that’s good information. i can give that to the team, and we can hopefully get someone out to look for you, okay?
do me a favor and keep an eye and ear out for these … cut outs, that talk. the same phrase in different ——
˖ ྀྀ ･ 𓂃 𝓀𝙖͟𝙩.@ultericrmotives
the layout feels vaguely familiar . . . like I’ve been here before. more than once. like I’ve lived here my whole life ﹠ know every little nook ﹠ cranny while simultaneously not knowing a damn thing. is that normal? but —— there’s a throne. chairs. lots of ‘em.
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