the longer the relationship/friendship i have with someone, the more burdened i feel. after knowing someone’s entire life and their interests, everything becomes familar, and incredibly boring. i want to seek out new connections in a way that doesnt invalidate my current ones
@SWEETERcroutons@tisimojasudblna i miss who i was back when i enjoyed every moment of my life. back when i didnt realise that those would be my last happy moments. back when i was truly unaware of what horrors would torment my life
@Roachblehh please make the most with your pets. It really does affect you afterwards. My cat died and i feel like my son is gone. I held such a heavy connection with him
every day my condition gets worse and worse. i get weaker and more skinnier. i lose more weight and remember less.
yet despite all of that, your just wondering how my body looks
some days i want to be desperately worshipped, like a goddess. but other days, i want my head to be smashed against the floor and have someone’s shoe against my face. i deserve the latter, though
i do not seek the lust, or pleasures of humanity. nor do i seek a vanilla, healthy relationship either. i dont know what i want, truly. i would like to be alone forever. human interaction and affection makes me uncomfortable