blur

blur ★ 보물 상자 ー ledger of thoughts

maybe in the next life, i’ll be something to show off and not something to hide.

is this how you want to be loved for the rest of your life?

i started shrinking. speaking softer. asking for less.

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tell me, was it her? or was it just her because she wasn’t me

it was a long time ago. it doesn’t matter anymore. and yet i cannot let it go. i cannot let it go.

i started shrinking. speaking softer. asking for less.

‘cause when you say that i’m the only one, did you mean that i’m the closest one around?

but when did bare minimum start feeling like something i should be grateful for?

is this how you want to be loved for the rest of your life?

i’ve shown my body more times than i’ve gotten flowers ー and that’s funny because i love flowers but i hate my body.

pretty enough to be lusted after, not pretty enough to be loved.

and you forgive her over and over again because isn’t that what love is? isn’t that what patience looks like? or is this just what settling feels like?

am i just something for you to fall back on like an old habit you can’t break?

still, there is this terrible desire to be loved.

she is in my heart and i suffer.