aika
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aika
@wvsbmi
20 | 168 cm/59,8 kg | personal diary gw 1: 52 gw 2: 46 ugw: 40
Milano, Lombardia Beigetreten Mayıs 2025
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relapsed yesterday and again today + tried to od but changed my mind and threw that up too 😍 glamorous recovery journey
aika@wvsbmi
insanely jealous of anorexics in recovery who gained to bmi 14-16 and are just maintaining… trying to diy cure bulimia has had me stuck in my disgusting fat body for months and sometimes i wish i never stopped because at least i would probably be thinner by now
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not gonna let any stupid competitiveness/jealousy get in the way of a nice friendship im not the only person in the world allowed to lose weight OBVIOUSLY and i have to learn to be normal when this topic is brought up otherwise when i see my mom in the summer again ill just kms
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going to lunch w the hypothyroid uni friend again LMAO but i lowk got over it shes really nice and idgaf what she says ab if shes dieting or eating or not eating idk its not my business i just hope shes healthy/safe and its nice and fun when we go to the canteen together so idgaf
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@dolluii constant & recurring b/p rewires your brain to send your body signals for crazy amounts of food whenever you get hungry bc it anticipates your compensatory behaviours + it changes how your dopamine receptors themselves react to eating! aka self perpetuating addiction cycle :(
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this will 99% chance come across as insensitive and dumb but to people who b/p, why not try to eat your tdee or go for slow wl instead of binging then starving in a loop and never losing weight ?
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@skinnebo and tbh im concerned for her and i feel bad that im mad, like she may be struggling and im complaining abt her on my twitter account i feel like an ass 😭 it just inevitably makes me feel competitive and shes not actually reaching out for help, just announcing that she doesnt eat
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@skinnebo NO EXACTLY 😭 many on here dismiss their irls as larping but it gets to a point where you can see the signs, thats also why im mad bc what shes saying goes beyond the normie “omg i didnt eat anything im starvinggg” and if you have an ed you know how much words can trigger someone
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like was it rlly only hyperthyroidism… and like why would anyone have to know that you used to be bmi 15 😭 IM STILL PISSED OFF AND IM JUST NOT SAYING ANYTHING MUCH BC I DONT WANNA TRIGGER HER OR BE DISMISSIVE BUT THE MORE I GIVE A NORMAL REACTION THE MORE SHE SAYS THIS STUFF 😭
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CAN I VENT ABT HOW ONE OF MY UNI FRIENDS KEEPS TALKING ABT HOW MUCH SHE DOESNT EAT she showed me her pics at bmi 15 and how body tea she was and said its bc she had hyperthyroid and now it became hypothyroid and she gained to 60 kg (im guessing bmi 23-25) and thats like okay
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she was like “yeah not the edtwt ass meal” girl omfg. i think a lot of people here dismiss their irls as faking or being dramatic, i think she genuinely has struggled before and maybe is relapsing idk i cant know but my issue is just that shes not actually reaching out for help
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then her stomach was upset so at the store she wanted easily digestible foods & i recommended rice cakes on top of the crackers she got and she was all “there was a period of my life where i ate them constantly so i dont really like them anymore…” like ok 😭 softlaunching the ed
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CAN I VENT ABT HOW ONE OF MY UNI FRIENDS KEEPS TALKING ABT HOW MUCH SHE DOESNT EAT she showed me her pics at bmi 15 and how body tea she was and said its bc she had hyperthyroid and now it became hypothyroid and she gained to 60 kg (im guessing bmi 23-25) and thats like okay
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