⋆.˚✮ dizzie ✮˚.⋆

intro (?): i’m zee, i’m 21f, and there’s way too fucking much in my head that i need to share. i’ve been doing so mostly w/ papers, texts to my mum, etc but it’s getting so lonely. will interact with subtwts whose issues i relate to (shedtwt/drugtwt/whatever) as a heads up

I’m going to kill myseld soon. I can no longer live in this world that’s intended for people with a heart. With a soul, who reciprocTe. I cant. I can’t. Fuck you. Fuck ALL of you. I want to die.

@neonxlightss YOU GET IT

@dizzieandmusing me too lol im always separating my drugs into multiple baggies so i have a better idea of how much i have

gotta ration this out for 5 more days 🫩

@angelicthreats I’ve only done microdoses of LSD but I’ve done full doses of psilocin though

@angelicthreats Shrooms, for me at least, were euphoric and introspective, like every shimmering thought I could ever have was laid out beside me and I was dancing through them all in a clouded haze. LSD was more sedative but still maintained that feeling of deep thought and evaluation

last one was vague soo. help me Choose. never tried :3

@angelicthreats YES keep yourself grounded and make sure to encourage a positive atmoshhere (somewhere you’re comfortable with comforting sounds and a familiar, friendly environment) stay safe and have fun!!

@dizzieandmusing ty! all these are dosed micro thankfully, molly included. my only worry w psyches is it unearthing trauma but IK if u keep a good set you can do just fine

@neonxlightss ME TOO i try to ration/space out my drugs in patterns so i can make the most out of it lol

@dizzieandmusing i want to consume it all

@angelicthreats and minus nic

@angelicthreats we almost have the exact same list!! mine is + xtc, k, methylphenidate, kpins, Ativan, 4ho-met and 4hodet, LSD, and shrooms and then minus the hydrocodome and baclofen

tierlist of chemicals ive put in my body. i need to do more #drugstwt #drugtwt

@angelicthreats LSD or mushroom microdoses are both really good for beginners, either or. ESPECIALLY paired with some weed

@angelicthreats iml tied between mishrooms and lsd bc they’re both good psyched to start out with, mandy/molly is a but more of an intense experience on the body and the mind in terms of consequences and you said k is expensive for you otheriwse i’d recommend that

while i was walking w him i felt something in my sock so i pulled it out. it was pills. why tf did i have pills in my so

went out with this guy played in a field

@leastprecious twins

@leastprecious i used to do that when i was like 14, take loads of diphenhydramine and drink a shit load of wine before going to family friends’ birthdays or graduations because it was “exciting” (little idiot i was) and i’d pass out, barely conscious by the end

I drank vodka and took dph :) I can’t cancel the crisis mobile team

@OliveIzdying yep. i gave up on not contributing to the ceaseless pit of despair and frustration a bit ago. i realised interacting was doing nothing but adding fuel to the fire, but temptation won out over principle in the end. i recognise, for all intents and purposes, i’m fucked up for that

Maybe shedtwt rly is an echo chamber of negativity

@emma_is_sad You’re laughing. He jsur gkt his visbon teeth rmved, and you’re laughing.

my friend got his wisdom teeth out & the first thing he texted me was: "i jsur gkt by visbon teeth remved" ive never laughed harder in my life

@Su_1_cider FOR REAL like what am I supposed to fucking do, NOT drink for the rest of my life??? fuck that how did i ever get by without alcohol

@dizzieandmusing Ykw that’s fucking fair I wish I had the first name of my liquor man that would be funky but I js call him Thomas the train and he smiles handing me the vodka 💆💆💆 I’m drinking now so I’m doing slightly better but holy fuck life is not worth it without alcohol

I need alcohol before i seize or shit im vomiting everywhere fuck fuck fuck?? Everytime I stand up I get flashbacks, I lie down I get flashbacks, I’m not even safe when I hunch over puking I get fucking flashbacks I don’t want this anymore

@Su_1_cider Okay so Im on a first name basis with his dog but same thing

@Su_1_cider Fr thats why Imm on a first name basis with the guy at the liquor store