˒ ‎ ‏‏‎ 𝑬XE𝑪U͟𝙏IV𝑬 —— 𝐍AK𝑨H͟A͟R𝐀 ｡

@DazaisFakeAcct ⠀ ⠀⠀“ I fuckin older than you , dipshit . ” ⠀

@cursedjanedoe ⠀ ⠀⠀“ Yer full of shit . Give it back already . ” ⠀He scoffs , he wants to say all of it is false , yet he knows truth always peaks through her bullshit . He opens the fresh pack offered with a scrowl , gloved hands pulling one free and moving it to hang from his lips . ⠀

@nakaharavoid ㅤ — If I stayed quiet, you would let the indecision and frustrations in your head devour your reasoning. Soon you would be trapped in a loop of frustration and anger, unable to enjoy anything. (She ran her thumb over the scratches on the lighter, admiring it for a while.) ㅤ

⠀ ⠀⠀“ Where the hell are my damn fuckin cigarettes ? I swear to god— ” ⠀

@ichorborn 》its okay at least im employed

@ichorborn 》yeah i died a bit

@nakaharavoid krul. it’s been a while

⠀ ⠀⠀“ Just keep em busy for a while . ” ⠀

》after tomorrow i'll have worked six days in a row 👍

@cursedjanedoe ⠀ ⠀⠀“ You're more tolerable when you don't talk . ” ⠀Another huff . The lighter was a cheap black one , plain beyond some scratches and maybe what used to be a sticker of some kind . It was old , and yet , Chuuya kept refilling it , keeping the damned thing around . ⠀

@nakaharavoid ㅤ (Her reflexes ensured a good catch; she glanced at the lighter and then at him. There was something gentle in her gaze before she lit the cigarette and took a deep drag. A sigh of relief escaped along with the smoke.) — The first puffs are always the best. ㅤ

the candles have all flickered and died. the flowers decayed. distance is all that's left. I feel so empty.

being alone is not the only time loneliness can overtake you. you can be surrounded by others and still feel lonely. we all treat loneliness like poison, but poison makes medicine. there is healing in solitude.

⠀ ⠀⠀“ I'm so tired that I don't even have an appetite .. ” ⠀

@cursedjanedoe ⠀ ⠀He has every reason to kick her out , every reason to be angry . Yet , her pathetic attempts make him sick and queasy , hating how loyal he is , how weak . She is someone who knows how to shatter him . He hates her . Yet , a moment later , he throws his lighter at her . ⠀

@nakaharavoid ㅤ ( She wanted nothing in return, and made no sarcastic comments. Dazai leaned against the nearest wall and picked up her own pack of cigarettes, placing a filter over her lips as she searched for a light. ) ㅤ

⠀ ⠀⠀“ I don't think you get it .. ” ⠀