Lispector’s Obsession

I really did make friends quickly, with my good-natured, easygoing cheer.

There I would have the chance to meet other boys and girls, Mama said.

We moved to a house closer to the city, in a neighbourhood whose name, along with other subsequent details, I shall suppress.

I accepted the discovery and it’s consequences without much commotion, in the same distracted way that I studied, went out, read, and lived.

Until one day they discovered I was a young lady, lowered the hem of my dress, made me wear new clothes and considered me almost ready.

We lived, from childhood until I was fourteen, in a nice house on the outskirts of town, where I went to school, played and roamed without a care beneath the benevolent gaze of my parents.

I was born of simple creatures, steeped in that wisdom one acquires through experience and figures out with common sense.

I was always serene and never showed the least sign of possessing those elements that Daniel brought out in me.

Though I didn’t think one could entirely comprehend why those seeds bore such sad fruit.

Only thus can one understand the ground in which his seeds were scattered.

I must tell a bit about myself, before my encounter with Daniel.

I transformed myself independently of my consciousness and when I opened my eyes the poison was circulating through my blood irremediably, it’s power already ancient.

I don’t recall very clearly how it started.

It simply happened.

I’ll try not to point fingers.

I won't try to make excuses for myself.

Now that the affair is behind me, I can recollect it more serenely.