amateur autistic schizo with god talks to me complex, liberal reactionary, former very bad sinner +lefty socialist, former ubermensch, blessedly god fearing now
had to stop watching the shift was getting the heebie jeebies, will return to it later, but it did uncover another hidden-ish wound of the assumption I'm merely arrogant for presuming the support of god
scripture more assuring than prophety chasing, and line of shared experience
it is a terrifying thought sometimes to know the depths man can fall to, but the hopes of glory are so much greater under the divine logos too in actuality
god the father blows apart the mediocrity of potential and the euphemisms/prevarications of wrong
one reason people reject the divine logos is they wish for a mediocre existence, nothing too much or too little
transcendental values increase or lower the bars of existence
a personal god on top of it heightens and lowers further the potential, in one's recognition not pre-exist
interesting, this easter is the first holiday experience I've genuinely felt in years, the first calendar event that's stuck out to me, that I felt important
if the authorities wanted christianity to be a private affair they should've thought about it before crucifying him in the public square
the news of a man death couldn't resist, and he's giving that gift to all is too good to keep to yourself
doug wilson calvinist reformed protestant doug wilson, meeting with daily wire catholic michael knowles
talking about christianity and nationalism
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my inherent shame is that I cannot advertise myself well, I've come to think I can provide the intellectual goods and spirited fire when taken seriously, but alas that initial interest is my vital weakness
to that end in the age of Vtubers, need a woman do
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without being egotistical, I can say christ has gifted me with an insight I would not otherwise have of his experience on the cross but in small portion and by his mercy I was not destroyed
the gift is in understanding the depths of his love
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been looking like an absolute tard trying so hard to bite snowflakes of prophetic snippets and trying to be prophetic, god seems to have humoured me about it, but it feels like he's saying scripture is best from now on
nevertheless I am thankful for the particulars as catalysts
I have decided not to put so much weight on what apparently to me prophetic people said in my life, and rely on scripture, if god wills it, I will be memetic, if not, I won't be, and I'll let my ex decide for herself whether she wants me instead of trying to appeal to her so hard