I HATE BEING A MENTALLY ILL JUNKIE , I FUCKING HATE IT. I CANT COPE WITHOUT DRUGS OR SELF HARM , IM SO FUCKING USELESS OH MY GOD , I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I FUCKING LOTHE MYSELF , EVERY ASPECT OF ME IS HORRIBLE
IF I WAS HIGH I WOULD HAVE GONE IMMEDIATELY TO BANNGING MY HEAD ON THE DOOR AS HARD AS I CAN , I I WOULDNT HAVE GRABBED THE CLOSEST BLADE TO ME , IM A FUCKING STUPID WORTHLESS JUNKIE IM NOT BRAKING THE CYCLE