Ruth Guest

Suicidal thoughts are often subtle. They whisper instead of scream. They sound like: I don’t care what happens to me. It might be easier if I wasn’t here. I feel trapped in a life I can’t escape. I don’t see a future for myself. Everything feels too big, too loud, too heavy. I’m numb, but it still hurts. I’m here… but I’m not. These aren’t “dramatic” thoughts. They’re red flags. They’re silent cries for help. They’re signs someone needs compassion long before crisis.

I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to live like this. That sentence holds more pain than most will ever understand. It’s not about giving up it’s about wanting relief. Wanting to stop hurting. Wanting rest from a mind that never feels safe. You don’t need to die to find peace. You need to feel safe enough to live.

Incase your weren’t aware due to the trauma we all experienced. A lot of our explosive emotional reactions aren't actually responses to the present moment. They're a buildup of all the times we were in similar situations and didn't stand up for ourselves, use our voice, or express our emotions."

People want to talk about mental health when it’s all yoga, breathing exercises and self care, but go quiet when it becomes about not washing for days, not being able to work, self harm and social isolation. Both conversations matter, but we need more of the second type.