Carlos Calle

the older i get the more i realize how much of life is just increasing your surface area for luck. go outside more. travel when you can. try new cafés. wander into museums. take a different route home. hike a new trail. see a city you’ve never seen. bring a notebook. talk to strangers. ask better questions. start something small on the side. in other words, give yourself more chances for something unexpected to happen. you can literally just do things. and strangely enough, the more you do, the more luck seems to find you.

Julian Rotter ran a study in 1960s that accidentally explained why most people never build a life they actually chose. He called it locus of control. People with an external locus believe their outcomes are governed by forces outside themselves: luck, authority, circumstance, other people’s decisions. People with an internal locus believe their actions are the primary driver of what happens to them. Decades of follow-up research produced a finding so consistent it borders on uncomfortable. Internal locus of control is one of the strongest predictors of income, health, relationship satisfaction, and psychological wellbeing ever measured across cultures. The school system, almost by design, trains external locus into children from the earliest age. You don’t choose what to learn. You don’t choose when to learn it. You don’t choose how to demonstrate understanding. Someone else sets the standards, grades your performance, and tells you whether you were adequate. Do this for sixteen years straight and you don’t just learn math and literature. You learn, at a neurological level, that external authorities define what counts as success and whether you’ve achieved it. Psychologists call the long term result of this “learned helplessness,” a term Martin Seligman developed after watching dogs stop trying to escape electric shocks even when escape became possible. The shocks had been uncontrollable for long enough that the animals stopped registering their own agency as a real variable. The cage door opened and they stayed inside because their nervous system had stopped believing that moving would change anything. The overlap between Seligman’s dogs and adults who cannot imagine building income outside a employer’s permission structure is not metaphorical. It is mechanistic. The brain that was never allowed to direct its own learning, never allowed to fail on its own terms and recover, never rewarded for autonomous decision making, genuinely loses resolution on its own capacity for self direction. The capability atrophies the way a muscle does when it goes unused. Reclaiming internal locus of control as an adult is rehabilitation work. And the research shows it compounds exactly the way the damage did, slowly, then faster than you expected.

i regret to inform you that personal growth rarely comes from acquiring new knowledge and almost always from: - getting humiliated - showing up terrified and doing it anyway - admitting you might be the problem

Buenos días, madrugadores. 27 de febrero de 1863, nace Sorolla y nace la luz.