u know when you can tell you’re starting to spiral and you’re trying soooo hard not to get in your head but it’s like happening anyway & there’s nothing you can do about it that is the worst
i'm genuinely losing my mind with the fact that i have a love hate relationship with being alone because i like how nobody bothers me but at the same time i wanna be loved
It kinda makes me sad when i reflect back on instances where people knew exactly what they were doing and how it would hurt me and went ahead anyway. The ease of being casually so insidious will never not shock me.