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์ผ Nisan 2025
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โ โwhat the fuck does that mean .แฃโ the first words kodyโs spoken since this started. he thinkโs this is familiar now. vaguely so. he canโt say heโs angry , he canโt say heโs sad. he canโt say the opposite either.
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& most importantly his stability. heโs fought for a long time now for confirmation that heโs allowed to ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฑ his source of joy. heโd be happy with that if he couldnโt feel that horrible swarming in his body again. โโ
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โ itโs working. alice is slipping away into warmer arms. all kody does is sit there & hold on by a thread. it isnโt useless to do , he thinks โโ because he was trusted. even if it wasnโt for a reason he should be โโ
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๐๐๐๐ แตอแตอแตอสณอแตอหขอแต ๐๐๐ . .โโฑโ ๐ด@doehuntinqs
ยป i didn't know how to tell you . i didn't .. know if there was gonna be anything to tell, or if it'd just .. be over again faster than it even started, to be honest. ยซ that's the thing with kody, after all . they make up, they break apart again a day later . โฆ
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โthatโs not fair , willow. why would you do that if i already knew .แฃโ somewhat knew.
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โ โwhy couldnโt you tell me about this , then .แฃโ it doesnโt sound right coming out of him , words all broken into pieces & trembling. kody thinks he used to sound far stronger the times ๐ฉ๐ฆโ๐ด made him cry. โโ
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โ kodyโs not stupid. he knows this is how heโs thought of. it still doesnโt stop the odd sinking feeling that waves over him. eyes stay transfixed on the back of alices shoulder , where they remain even when โโ
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๐๐๐๐ แตอแตอแตอสณอแตอหขอแต ๐๐๐ . .โโฑโ ๐ด@doehuntinqs
ยป what? ยซ his face drops into utter confusion in the matter of seconds , brows scrunched together to make any sense at all of what alice is saying to him . ยป when did i โ i *don't . alice , i don't . i don't know how you got that out of all of this but โฆ
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mustโve disgusted him to even say. โfuck , willow , i except that shit from him , but ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ .แฃ you promised weโd die together.โ
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โwhat made you love him more .แฃ why couldnโt you just fucking tell me that instead of doing this .แฃโ he wonders how much heโs lied. how many times he mustโve gagged alone thinking of all the empty promises. โโ
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โ โno. no , you wouldnโt be doing this. you wouldnโt do this to me.โ body backs up further , & this time it isnโt his doing. arms have wrapped around waist. tight. well timed considering the jolt forward that happens in between. โโ
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๐๐๐๐ แตอแตอแตอสณอแตอหขอแต ๐๐๐ . .โโฑโ ๐ด@doehuntinqs
ยป no . i just wanted him to *love me . i don't want to fucking marry him . i want to marry *you . ยซ how can it be so hard to understand ? why does no one seem to be getting any of this , least of all the fact that kody *obviously set this up to โฆ
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/ kody is once again calling him stupid but with his eyes
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if heโll show him he loves him more than whatever idea of himself that kodyโs been giving him. โyou wanna marry him too .แฃโ
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โ.. you want him to love you more than me .แฃโ itโs only an assumption. itโs all only assumptions , & yet heโs letting them move him. body backs against kodyโs just to see if willowโll care. โโ
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โ he doesnโt believe him. not because he doesnโt trust willow ( though heโs certainly starting not to now ) , but because he doesnโt trust kody. doesnโt believe heโd tell willow anything that he wouldnโt know already , โโ
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๐๐๐๐ แตอแตอแตอสณอแตอหขอแต ๐๐๐ . .โโฑโ ๐ด@doehuntinqs
there goes his plan for staying silent . he wants to slip off the couch and slink off to his room, slam the door shut . barricade it closed until he rots into the sheets, nothing more than a big stain that needs cleaning up . โฆ
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