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And a part of me feels bad because they’re also mentally ill, but they don’t even TRY. Like they’re the type that wallows in their self pity, they infantilize themselves and want people to do everything for them. I can’t handle it anymore…

They make the crafts yes but I handle all the finances, logistics, social media, I schedule everything bc they literally refuse to fucking talk to people. They barely talk to the customers when they come up to the booth. This wasn’t even the agreement we had. I want out

I co run a craft booth with my irl bff (who Im starting to dislike unfortunately) and next weekend we have a pop up. And I really don’t want to go, I don’t even want to be a part of it anymore because I literally do EVERYTHING

@nanalvsshachi Bulimia, of all fucking things. But I can’t purge anymore because of my heart

#edrtwt #ricecake interaction bait !! except i’m genuinely curious 👀 ────୨ৎ──── which was the best way you lost weight? not necessarily the fastest but like overall best. i used to lose reaaaally fast on 1.2k cals but now im struggling to see changes on 800 🫩🫩

Im going to feel super guilty about dinner for the rest of the night it seems..

Going to have to eat a spinach and feta stuffed filo pasty for dinner 😞 according to the label it’s supposed to be 350 cals but it felt so greasy even while frozen, it makes me think they lied about the cal count..

@sugarberriezzz The voodoo chips by zapps 🤤

best chip flavor in your opinion ? mine is either salt and vinegar or dill pickle

Sighh only down .3lbs from yesterday. Better than maintaining or gaining I guess..

@SkinnyLove360 I was on ability for like a year, but I stopped taking it like a week ago in conjunction with smoking weed because both made me gain 20 fucking pounds

Is anyone else on antipsychotics? If so, what one? Did you gain weight?

Husband is so busy building gůnpla that I got away with not eating dinner

Lunch was a piece of toast with honey roasted pb and half a banana. Ended up eating the other half of it too though :/ I’m really hungry today

My legs are SO sore from the workout I did 2 days ago 😖 I know day 2 soreness is the worst so hopefully tomorrow they’ll start feeling better

The only thing I have going for me is having hazel eyes and hair down to my ass 💀 everything else about me is busted

@Renaissance1827 Im proud of you!! It looks delicious, I hope you enjoyed it ^.^

Fear food challenge💪 I tried Komeda’s signature dessert, the Shiro Noir — a warm Danish pastry topped with soft-serve ice cream. While I was completely overwhelmed by its size, my partner said, “You know, you can gain a little weight.” And I was like, “Oh right, that's true.”

@lobsterofedtwt It really is a canon event for every disordered person to watch that video omgg

@balljointediary My fucking post sent early omg I meant to fully say, "ugh the photo like that for me is this one"

Thinspo to keep me starving

@lazylambzz Dermatillomania is the devil, im sorry you also struggle with it 😔 I pick my fingers until they bleed. It does help to keep the wounds covered in my experience, whenever you see a pimple or spot maybe try to put a pimple patch on it? Those star pimple patches are nice and cute

never start picking ur skin :( it started with a tiny spot and now it’s so swollen it’s weighing my mouth down. i cant let people see me like this

@002emptied I made sure my gyno was a woman, and I took my anti anxiety meds and smoked beforehand. I also told her that I was SA’d (didn’t go into detail) and she made sure to walk me through everything beforehand so I knew what to expect for that appt. I hope your gyno is just as kind

SA mention \\ anyone who's a victim of SA, how did you handle going to the gynecologist? it's been a few years but i can already feel the anxiety building, i'm so afraid i know im gonna have a flashback and freak out

@miyelcat There is no ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ way to one’s disorder, but I understand the feeling :c tomorrow will be a new day, and I hope it treats you better than today ❤️‍🩹

i had a bit of a b/p for lunch :(( purged as much as i could but i feel rlly rlly terrible about it and im worried about gaining now

@fatbeyondrepair Anyone who believes in “biohacking” anything is an immediate red flag to me lmao

oh so you’re all actually fatphobic as fuck god damn