harmonia 💫

I understand I have a lot to answer for right now, but I wanted to at the very least acknowledge that what I did was incredibly wrong. I am remorseful for my actions and I won’t make excuses, Rich should have been informed immediately after we made out. We did not sleep with each other before the breakup, but that does not change the hurt or betrayal that was caused by our actions. I have been handling a lot of this privately and I understand I owe a public apology and I’ll get around to composing something when I’ve had a little more time. I also understand that a tweet like this won’t be satisfactory, but I just wanted to say something, it didn’t feel right to be silent. I am sorry for disappointing you all, and I am incredibly sorry to Rich for everything that I did, and that goes from hiding this, attempting to be your friend while hiding it, and that includes recording content and spending time with you. I am really, really sorry. It was the wrong decision to withhold this information, regardless of how scared I was. I understand it’s not my place to decide when I should have spoken to him and it’s clear that this led to even more pain for him. To be transparent, Taylor is my ex and we both had residual feelings for one another. About a week or so after the kiss, Taylor broke up with Rich and she came to see me in March and we continued talking from there. I also understand there’s more being discussed about me and I’m not ignoring it. It’s a lot to process right now but I will try to address these at a better time. Right now, this shouldn’t be about me, and more about Rich. Once again, I am genuinely truly sorry. I’m going to step away from the internet for the moment. I may say more later, but for now I just wanted to acknowledge this directly instead of staying silent. Thank you for reading, I can and will be better.