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~ weigh me down ✨hollanov college roommates au ✨first chapter/ongoing ✨ mean shane, pathetic ilya, spit kink ✨ they claim to hate eachother but they’re obsessed with one another archiveofourown.org/works/83499056…

Rozanov is looking at him with what appears to be concern in his eyes. Confused, Shane waits for him to make a decision. ‘Hopefully he’ll just let me go and we’ll never discuss this again.’ “Shane, look at me please.” Ilya’s calming voice has the brunette lifting his eyes. +

“Just get it over with Rozanov. It’s hilarious to you that I’m turned on, I get it. It’s pathetic. Alphas shouldn’t be attracted to alphas. So hurry up, have your laugh and let me go.” Shane speaks so quickly it makes his head dizzy. +

Alpha Shane who has never desired knotting or mating with an Omega. He’s always felt wrong in his skin and doesn’t know how to handle it so he buries himself in his strict diet, rigorous exercise and hockey; his three loves. He’s satisfied with his choices. Enter Alpha Ilya. +

@acdsbff No you’re correct, I’m sure he’s going to be bitter and conflicted about this in Unrivaled. He’d withstood their reluctance to accept his sexuality but to accuse him of intentionally throwing a game? Yeah no the Montreal Voyageurs need to count their days.

can i just say (probably controversially) that i think shane’s whole world view around hockey probably shifts once he’s accused of intentionally throwing a game by his teammates

@fookintentacle Ugh I can imagine him going up and trying to meet some boys who “look” friendly but they’re actually just mean to him :(((

@whimsfully noooo! He's just skating back and forth while everyone else makes friends 😭

little Shane nervous to go to his hockey practice because he’s not good with talking to others :( little Shane feeling excluded from the rest of the group because they have other interests and his is just hockey :( my little shanebug

@troybarretts lizee I’m so sat I’d love to beta

this will probably be out end of april (??) and i will tag people in the replies if u would like to be notified when it’s posted :3!!! also need people to beta once its done being written!!

post tuna melt pre all stars shane wakes up with a pussy and can’t figure out how to get himself off and in an act of desperation calls ilya to help him get off

@apadeva My guess is Connor never believed in him and Hudson was like 15

i wonder what age hudcon were when they found out santa wasn’t real

Ilya’s relationship with religion isn’t explored nearly enough and I want to case study it so badly. Sun Bleached Flies by Ethel Cain would have healed something in him.

@paulettesucr Paulette he was so lonely :( my sweetie pie

@whimsfully oh god noooo I'm crashing out over this!!!

baby shane wanting so desperately to fit in with his peers so he studies all their interests, organizing them in his head, so he can talk about them :( he just wanted friends so badly which is why in part he was so nervous approach Ilya. he just wanted companionship :(

@ilya4mvp no <3 I just love baby shane

@whimsfully Do you hate me

Oh my little Shanebug, so anxious to be outed. He was so worried Ilya would tell the league he was looking at him in the showers, it made him nearly sick :( I can’t imagine feeling as isolated as he did, so young and determined to protect himself he’d rather never be truly happy.

They never would have allowed an Asian man to be the first and I’m sure he would have been made to retract his statement if he tried before he was outed :(

Thinking about how if Shane was the first to come out in the league, he wouldn’t have had the same reception as Scott Hunter. Even him being a hockey legend, who has numerous accolades. He would be stripped if his identity by the public and turned into a spectacle bc he’s gay :(

I know I’m a freak on main but trust my heart is in the angst, I will be posting my angsty thoughts about Hollanov trust <3

@modern_fossils AMES THIS WAS YOU OMG I LOVE YOUR FIC

sooooooo i realized i never posted this on my twitter and anyway here’s shane hollander gets clicker trained

I’m just so glad Shanebug grew up and found someone he didn’t have to conform for

@troybarretts honestly a great question ??? Like I feel that should have enough to be a full on tag

how is pillow humping not a canonized tag in ao3

fic writers on ao3 literally making e-mails that you can scroll down to read, postcards that you can see after clicking on them, sentences in other languages that you can translate and read after simply clicking, fic writers are you some kind of gods or what the hell