Issues 🫠

Realising my nail appointment was the only physical contact I’ve had in over three weeks

I’ve also started doing CBT and I hate that it’s forcing me to come to terms with my thoughts and feelings

So after over a year I decided to go back on my antidepressants, been stuck in a depressive episode for 10 months and I can’t keep going like this

There’s nothing left to loose atp

I don’t know if I should run away or finally give up

But I’m the disappointment

It’s funny because I’m the only member of my family that’s never been unemployed for more than 30 days since getting my first job

This year has made me feel like I’m descending into insanity and not in a cool artist way but an if I tell people I will be sent away kind a way

My closest cousin finally saw how depressed I really am and said I was weird when she brought up that I probably can’t have kids

Moving out of the house I love so much

I need mental health support so badly but can’t find it

What did I do wrong?

No one wants me for me just to be a sex toy

Have I been raised to be a wife just to end up single?

One bad night is all it takes

Will I survive or will the alcohol finally take me like I want it to?

Idek if I will ever get sober

I have been on a few benders recently but didn’t want to say anything

I just want to be loved the way iris was written