There is no shame in what I've experienced and I hope that by sharing my story that there is one person who can be brave enough to say "Me, too." and shed their shame shackles in the process. heatherneedsadiary.wordpress.com/2023/01/27/she…
It was always you.
I was always waiting on you and only you.
The funny thing about waiting is that the thing or person that we're waiting on rarely changes, the person waiting is who experiences the change. I am changed, for waiting for you. I'm kinder and more gentle, I am m
I know that you’re feeling empty and tired and like you have nothing left to give, like you can’t fight anymore. I know you’re feeling bitter and angry and jealous and that those feelings leave you with guilt. I know that you’re telling yourself to just suck it up and con
So angry that I want to watch the entire world burn just so they might feel the consumption of the pain that I have and will endure. Other times, I feel so sad that it's almost as if every color I see is tinged with blue and I'm walking in quick sand.
I feel pretty numb and disconnected from all of this most days. Never from you, just from my emotion; the weight of mourning you is so heavy. When I think about how I've been robbed of you I, sometimes, feel really angry.