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wandering around brooklyn feeling so overpoweringly grateful i cannot find the words to express it. my life has gotten so much better so quickly i can hardly believe it’s all real, i can hardly believe i’m actually here.

i loved and i still love

@lcmedium :(

wikihow point out off-beat dancing to a friend. gentlest method, trauma informed, max EQ

@animalologist 🫂 i have pretty major blocks on anger, particularly wrt the situations that prompted this tweet i don’t think i ever tied that to an inability to cry, though. we should talk about this more

who here has learned how to cry? and how did you do it?

@sciad classic elite lowbie pattern

it always strikes me as odd how many cool mutuals I have with very few followers but post rly cool stuff, idgi

luke 23:34

@liquidprismata this is not the barrier

@ThinkingBone you have to want it

over a year ago i did a lot of mushrooms and came away “oh my experience of world is scaffolded by load-bearing shame?” then just put that thought away & somehow it sneaks out again, and again, and again…

@PrinceVogel do you know anyone in the nyc area, or anyone who knows anyone in the nyc area

@ThinkingBone Unfortunately the tears might be on the other side of the panic The mind prevents itself from falling into certain mental states by clinging to certain bodily states. Some people are good at guiding you out of those bodily states.

@aliceisplaying is this acute if you take it once or like, a greater tendency toward it if you take it regularly

@ThinkingBone estrogen

@PrinceVogel how does bodywork come into it? sad movies feel artificial. right now, with the state of my nervous system, meditation makes me panic

@ThinkingBone Meditate, watch sad movies, maybe find a bodyworker Remember that the pain cleanses you

“did the journal factory blow up” yeah it did and i wish i had died with my brothers in the blaze

i’m not going to “do” anything about it

no hopes for the future and no understanding of the past just the void of the present

genuinely unsure if i’m accepting or disassociating

declaring emotional bankruptcy

being this sad is gorgeous

there are no more words to say. there are only feelings to feel.

@adastroworld it’s unanimous

Poll: would you describe me as “intelligent”? Context in replies

don’t just ‘feel it’ for a moment, then go wow that was insightful, let’s think about what we just felt stay with it.