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do not underestimate my ability to burn it all to the fucking ground

Intentionally leaving someone in the dark knowing it’s torturing them is borderline psychotic

ain’t no way god thinks i’m this strong

i’ll forever regret the fucking ways i lost myself just to feel slightly loved

Me thinking about cutting everybody off & moving away.

"You look tired" I'm so tired not even sleep can fix this "How are you feeling" I haven't felt anything in a while "You're falling behind" No I'm giving up "You've been distant lately" I'm fighting for my life rn

Telling someone to “move on” “just let it go” “don’t dwell on it” isn’t supportive. It’s invalidating. Healing doesn’t come from ignoring pain it comes from feeling safe enough to fucking face it.

People imagine suicide as a single moment. But often it’s a thousand tiny moments leading there. The nights you whisper “I can’t do this.” The mornings you wonder why you woke up. The days you’re alive, but not really living.

Peace and quiet been treating me better than half the people I loved.

there’s a strange calm in no longer expecting emotional reciprocity from people who never offered it naturally.

Mentally I been gone

It’s scary to think that people can secretly harbor animosity toward you and still hang out with you.

After this come back, Neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr let yourself go back that way again.

I was deeply mishandled last year by people I cared about. That won't happen again.

I owe myself an apology for staying in spaces where I wasn’t wanted or appreciated, for forcing broken connections and relationships. I owe myself an apology for putting people who never valued me above myself and for doubting my own worth.

I'm turning into someone who doesn't care about anything anymore but maybe that's okay, because when I cared about everything in me, they treated it like it meant nothing