cami

unpinning at 59kg ✧˖*°࿐

i need to see monkeys !!

it is not in a disordered way it just happened 😭 and i was starving when i arrived to the breakfast buffet ;-;

my stomach has shrunk so much and idk why but i went to the breakfast buffet and just grabbed food as i would do it normally and couldn’t finish it 😭 which made me feel sad because i wasted so much food

i’m going to try to wake up early tomorrow because i want to make it to the free breakfast !!

i’m so sick that even breathing is painful

THERE’S JOLLIBEE IN THIS COUNTRY OMG

two times this month btw

i’ve been getting sick every month this year 😞

tried this and it was delicious

he is upstairs rolling and ugh I am dying here it’s too warm

Bf made me come to the hostel where he is volunteering and I am waiting for him downstairs surrounded by so many ppl I can’t talk to because I have no voice

look at it !!

i’m considering ending my fast because i have a mini kimbap

@chrysaliscals it waa sooooo good !! 😭 i feel her voice keeps getting better every day !!

@bakedsbeans i loved this album as someone who previously had only listened to a few of her songs. it feels way more comfy like she found her sound

finally listening to it especially cause i relate to the name of the album rip

@ccntccls I just want to believe it’s because it’s still kinda recent and also I’m his first gf ever like the ex I mentioned it was never like a proper relationship like we have, kinda ex situatinship but I am not wasting all my time if he’s not going to be sure over his feelings !!

@bakedsbeans I am speaking as someone who was in a loveless relationship for a very long time. I felt extremely useless, everything I said out loud felt uninteresting and stupid, I still struggle to feel pretty or sexy. because I constantly knew how they felt and how it won't change

last night was so terrible and to make things worse i had a conversation w the bf which rly made me realise and accept the fact that he will never love me

@ccntccls I just like him so much I can’t just walk away 😭😭😭 I rly don’t know what to do because he has been becoming my favourite person (i’m also his atp it’s been a convo) and ugh, I do know I won’t wait longer than a two months for him to maybe fall in love with me he knows it too:(

i still haven’t got my voice back i want to cry

and weed here is soooooo good

and now we got more hehe i had a friend who helped me with it he met him when he was visiting a few months ago !!

we got weed here for free because we met this american guy who had some and gave it to us because he was flying somewhere else