jm! ☆

☕—mediumsuh.carrd.co

@jaeminini__ something something jaemin trying to rut up into jeno's strong thighs something something

@mediumsuh u can still post ur thoughts

can't even post my thoughts abt this i fear

will be turning them into fic instead 😁

no actually this part bc what is going on at sm

FROM #텐 #TEN 💌 “hello czennies and wayzennies, this is ten. i spent a long time thinking about how to begin this message. i wondered if there might be a better way to share this, and thought about it over and over again, but in the end, i feel sorry and regretful that i’m delivering it like this in writing. so today, i want to share my true feelings honestly. moving forward, i will continue spending time with you as ten of nct and wayv. at the same time, i’m planning to take on a new challenge as a solo artist. since debuting in 2016 with nct u, the time i’ve spent promoting with nct and wayv and meeting all of you has been filled with truly precious and happy memories. leaving thailand at a young age to come to korea, there were many unfamiliar and scary moments, but all the staff at sm sincerely took care of me and always stood by my side. above all, i believe i’m able to be who i am today because you, who have stayed by my side through every moment, were there. thank you, truly. as time passed and i now find myself approaching 30, i began asking myself once again, “what kind of person do i want to be from now on?” and “what kind of music and what side of myself do i want to show?” after much thought, i came to want to try new challenges in a new environment. after many conversations with the members and the staff at sm, and after deep consideration, i decided to conclude my exclusive contract with the company. i know very well that this wasn’t an easy choice, and that it could greatly change the direction of my life moving forward. but i will take responsibility for my decision and do my best so that i won’t have any regrets. i sincerely thank the members who have always supported me so i could dream even bigger, and i’m also deeply grateful to everyone at sm who has trusted me and been with me until now. and to czennies and weishennies, who have always believed in me and loved me no matter what, because of you, i was able to come this far. i still don’t fully know what kind of side of myself i’ll be able to show you in the future, but i want to walk that path together with you. will you continue to be with me? nct, wayv, and ten, i will come back to you with an even better version of myself, unchanged at heart. thank you always. and i love you very much.

I started a nomin canon fic before mark's announcement that idek if I can stomach writing now...💔

reading this rn and it is nomin asf btw if anyone was curious

MARK 1ST BBL AFTER THE ANNOUNCEMENT 🥲

@renhyuck323 exactly. I can't

@mediumsuh we were supposed to have tds70 on mars and chiller cane ver.

nct was actually supposed to last forever idk idk like what happened to tds100 idk

10+ YEARS AS AN IDOL AND THIS IS HOW JUN IS PERFORMING BTW

lowkey ending it all x.com/M1chiRu_Chan/s…

thinking abt jeno and jaemin and their subunit and how they wanted to make something to be part of each other's futures idk guys I'm losing it

who the fawk is 6dream omg we used to call them just dream when they were six in 2020 .... Where are the ancient texts.....

RT @nowtomymin: 🥺

ironically end to start is my absolute favorite 127 song and it has gotten me through so much...hope it can help me get through this too

@chrii7jaem that's so real I genuinely got so sad that I was like fuck maybe I should go back to praying idk

@mediumsuh I did! And i cried cause i was in my feels about mark the whole time. Im hoping everyone there just thought i was moved by the holy spirit or something

Yall im so fucked up i almost went to a protestant mass 😭😭😭

260404 #HAECHAN #해찬 instagram live 🐻: i think I’ve been spending my time thinking about what’s next. i have been resting, but I’ve also been taking vocal lessons, and i have been preparing for the next album comeback.. just constantly thinking about the future. because of that, i figured you might be worried, so i thought it’d be better to come and talk to you face-to-face like this. i also wanted to share some of my thoughts and feelings. first of all, thank you so much to everyone who’s been worried about me. it's been really been over 10 years, right? if i am being exact, since i was 14… it’s been more than 13 years now. so yeah, it’s been 13 years. during those 13 years with mark hyung, i relied on him so much. i learned so much from him. whenever i was shaken, he held me together. honestly, other than during concerts, i have almost never seen him cry but there were times he called me while crying. to me, he was more than just a member… he was truly like a real older brother. in his family, he’s the youngest, and I’m the oldest in mine, but to me, he was my hyung. really. more than any other “hyung,” he felt like a real one to me. so after spending 13 years together, i depended on him a lot. i think that’s why many of you are even more worried, because you know that too. thank you so, so much. as soon as the article came out, i sent Mark hyung a long message. i told him: everyone knows how hard he worked while living as part of nct. all of that will surely become meaningful steps on the path he’s going to walk. and at the same time, everything he’s done in nct will also become good steps for nct's future path. so i told him to work hard in a way that he won’t regret the choice he made. now that i am the only one doing two teams, of course i feel sad and worried too. but all the things i built up while working with him… how should i even describe it? the energy and strength I gained from being with him are still with me. so now, i have become someone who can walk forward even without him. of course, even if he hadn’t been there from the start, i might have still made it this far… but i don’t think that path would have been easy alone. still, because he was there, he gave me comfort, strength, and support. an all of that has built up into the strength that allows me to keep going now. that is something ireally wanted to tell all of you, that you don’t have to worry too much. mark hyung wasn’t my only pillar of support. i have the other members too, and i have czennies who support me. so i am not scared. i am not worried. i don’t know yet what choices or decisions i will make in the future, but no matter what, the 10 years i have walked and the many people who’ve been by my side will continue to be with me. so i am not afraid. and when it comes to Mark hyung’s decision… i know his personality well. i know he must have thought about it deeply. he probably went through a lot of stress and pain while making that choice. of course, we can’t say whether that decision was right or wrong… but i do feel a bit regretful about the way it was delivered to you all. i knew about it at the time too… but honestly, there was nothing the members could do. it was such a helpless moment, we really couldn’t do anything except feel frustrated and cry. that part is still really frustrating. but still, thank you all so much. and going forward… i hope you’ll continue to stay with us like you are now.

🍒 "THE 13 OF US HAVE DECIDED TO RE-SIGN OUR CONTRACTS" 🍒 "and we will continue to sail on the same boat all together"