Static Brain

The weirdest realization I’ve this year about success is that I was subconsciously waiting to FEEL successful before allowing myself to consistently take action. It wasn't just me. A LOT of people I knew where suffering from this trap. 👇👇👇

Your success is often used as "emotional compensation." Basically it's an attempt to build a wall high enough that you feel like people's judgment (which leads to what's worse, self-criticism) can't reach you.

You notice you are overwhelmed only after the system crash has already begun, because your "internal temperature gauge" is quiet while it's being uncomfortably built it up.

Emotional object permanence is a silent thief.. feeling like its hard to stack up your wins and take them with you. Every confident situation you leave, your self-assurance score is wiped to zero and every time you re-enter a situation, you're starting from emotional scratch.

You will spend nine hours avoiding a ten-minute task if that means you'll avoid being seen as "incompetent" or "failing potential".

@Beargirl_1 Life got A LOT quieter when you stop treating other people's decisions like clues about your own worth.

A lot of peace came from realizing that other people's choices are not a puzzle I need to solve and not a verdict on who I am.

@kush_147 Eventually you stop asking, "why is this really happening to me?" and start thinking, "of course it is."

There is a kind of emotional fatigue where you stop reacting, not because nothing affects you, but because everything already has

@Justtdavid_ Sometimes it's like they need you to be a certain way because it makes them feel better about themselves in relation to you.

People often struggle with the fact that their opinion of you doesn't define how others see you

@ghoulhag A lot of people feel like this. There is a HUGE difference between having people around and having someone who speaks your emotional tongue.

World is so cruel to neurodivergent women I don’t need a bunch of female friends to socially condition myself into I just want 1 person who understands me and be in a codependent symbiotic relationship with, ideally another woman

@ayojoestar At some point it starts looking a lot less like just a self-diagnosis and a lot more like a very specific type of networking.

if ur autistic friends also think ur autistic then that's not self-diagnosis that's peer review

@Jimmy_draco1 If they are still measuring themselves against you when you're struggling, they were never competing with your success in the first place. They were competing with your existence.

If they still compete with you at your lowest, you're dangerous.

The exhaustion you feel after a party isn't from the people per se, but from having to perform "neurotypical gymnastics" for three hours straight.

You often use self-criticism as a "pre-emptive strike," hoping that if you judge yourself first, the people's perceived judgments won't hit you as hard.

You don't have "social anxiety," you have "social debt." You constantly feel like you owe a version of yourself that you can't consistently provide.

You have just been living with your life's "volume dial" was set to zero while everyone else heard the music at a ten. Pick an area in life and just crank that bitch up.

@pingu4ll Look into what I said. We are in this together.

@staticbrainx static brain telling me to change my mind :/

no amount of "it gets better" is worth this shit

That's because a lot of mental work we're doing leaves no visible evidence until the result finally shows up.

@SIGMAPROFESSOR Most lazy people are enslaved. They're only lazy because their comfort zone has become their prison. It's not like a lazy person isn't doing anything. They're still giving away their time and attention away for free somewhere.

It’s hard to enslave lazy people. They won’t hustle for anyone. It’s like a built-in resistance to the system.

@gameoverneuroty You have a purpose to why you are here and only YOU can carry out that purpose. I know that loneliness doesn't always get easier with time but you will get better at carrying it. I'm sorry you feel this way but please hang in there. You got this.

I've been alone my entire life, and every day it still feels like it's the first time. Holy mother of God. I wish you would just kill me already

@chainsawdollie The painful part is not about what any of them are saying per se. It's you realizing how much of the judgement and self-criticism is coming from your OWN head. If you didn't think of yourself to be a failure, you probably wouldn't even care.

everyone says "you have time to figure out what you want to do!" but i know they really just think im a failure