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colt in this fucking harness gear is the red sauce that makes me evil and hurt myself and others

two kinds of mentally ill

i want to cry into someone’s arms while being comforted for hours

oh god im crying now why am i having a break down and panic attack in the span of 11 minutes

im not functioning well today

I'm shaky and dizzy now wtf is wrong with me

I need to kms I'm so utterly pathetic genuinely why do I get upset over the slightest of things that could mean someone hates me

I just had a panic attack and realized truly how much I react when triggered and I have the term triggered but I genuinely had it click that I keep having the same reactions over little things that make me thing someone is upset with me and it brings me back to 2020

Watching this movie is not a distraction at all I feel like I'm gonna combust

i like using sleep as like a time jump thing, sleep means i can get to a point where im not anxiously waiting

i should uhm cry and sleep and lay down and die

im realizing her phone is likely just dead

@llllooossseerr2 that audio played 2 times at a concert i went to last week too, so itsbeen stuck in my headd

@FishrRotten i think im gonna die in ghid HOUSE

i think im in some sort of gonna die in this house mood today no one is responding to my dms that i have plans with, my gf is possibly sick because of me, my cuts reopened, i need to kms

@llllooossseerr2 SHE WILL PROBABLY I TRUST

@FishrRotten mmm idk my like point was she was gonna so she like she cant now but she WILL trust

oh my god shes leaving me on read for the first timei m genuinely freaking out she went online after i sent her bugs but now shes offline again and she never responded to my apologies

@llllooossseerr2 HER MOM LIKESS ME THOOO SHE MADE ME A FIRST AID BAG that is a valid point i am just overthinking this

@FishrRotten maybe she was like gonna respond vbut her like mom or smt came in so she couldsnt

yk i may be having some form of extreme anxiety because its been an hour of no replies but i think im gonna watch la la land to distract myself

@llllooossseerr2 maybe??? idk she didnt respond to anyone else and shes not normally online but she gets notifications and usually responds and ik shes awake cause she takes a shower in 10 minutes

@FishrRotten maybe shes like busy idk mine does that sometimes