avery (??/15)

doing cardio as a malnourished nicotine addict

Healthy recipes be like yeah i'm 50 cal per portion and this is the portion in question

I THINK I FUCK THIS ED'ED INTO GAINING BACK FACE WEIGHT IM PISSED

edtwt celebrating the start of a new month like its new year

staring into the mirror and realizing after all the skipped meals, the millions of steps, the brutal workouts, the failed classes, and every single sacrifice i’ve made, i’m still chopped, dumb, and just painfully average

the concept of being big & small & big & small & big & small again & still nobody wants you

two of my friends who lowk hate me started talking about cals right in frontof me

this sparks many a "fuck my ed moment" quite fraaaankly

locking in made me bonier and it gen makes js being in a place in any position lowk uncomfortable

this is how i feel complaining about mg weight

Not restricting ≠ not disordered btw. Even if you have anorexia, you don't need to restrict 24/7, 365 to still be valid. And its normal to have periods of "normal eating". It doesn't mean you dont have an ED anymore. You're not a failure. Its a mental illness, not a diet.

quitting self harm to focus on my eating disorder

when its about time to weigh myself after having a "fuck this ed" weekend

put the damn confetti away 😭

it's going to work this time

i thimk i get luckier and better w people when i dont eat

happy 420 actually im having a pretty okay time ♪( ´∀｀)人(´∀｀ )♪