pool in the dead

lifes been vey weird lately but also very humbling, ykwim? im constantly seeing people get what ive been praying for months, maybe years. And while i know every thing has its own time and i do have tawakul, it just kinda sad. things at home keep getting messed up. idk how long

AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA WTF WHAT THE FUCK

i miss you mother

i rmr how first semester seemed like a never ending nightmare. currently in my last semester, graduating in a few months if everything goes well, probably clinically depressed. but we ball right

too much agression for a single person to hold

new hot line that i get hit by now a days: YOU'RE SOOOOOOOO INSENSITIVEEEE

i shall sleep, good night. i don't want to fall to the sq 1

what if it was for nothing

I also think it was a very hard thing for me to do. I've never felt like swallowing my ego as much as i did here

apologising to them really feels like that they think keh they deserved the apology. I don't think they did. I wouldn't have done it if it was not for this strong intuition that i had. But maybe, only maybe, this is a part of the process

"she did the editing" I CAME UP WITH THE FUCKING IDEA

WHAT THIS FEELING WHY DO I FEEL SO OVERSTUMULATED AAAAAAAAAAA

is it my periods bro

maybe im just paranoid

dude wtf AHAHAHAHHAA WHY AM I FEELING THIS WAY THIS MAKES 0 SENSE

bro am i being paranoid

idk if im being just negative or paranoid or my intution is right

this sounds so fucking shady but idk how to prove it

maybe i really don't need anyone but them.

too many people on main acc that wasn't the plan