* 𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒖𝒓𝒂, 𝕹.

⠀i want to be saved . that's all i've ever wanted .

can my present last if i have no past? nothing’s clear when i look back, it’s just black.

this pain will linger with me still, i pray this too shall pass.

you hate me， don't you? i hate myself too.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀❆ ⋅ 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬 › ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀kiss me in the rain after I make you bleed . show me how much you love me .

would you fall in love with me again if you knew all i have done? the things i cannot change, would you love me all the same?

something in me wants more. i can't rest.

in another universe， my window is open and i'm laying on the floor. i am twelve years old. nothing bad has happened to me yet.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀if I can't have you . . no one can .

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀being around me isn't safe .

i’ll come back for you.

⠀crawl inside this body— find me where i’m most ruined , love me there .

⠀i belonged to no one . not the right daughter . not the right sister . not the right friend . not the right lover .