《Angelica — LCB Guide》

[Group takeover with the LCB Saints] "Hah... wandering with a group of misfit "Saints"... not how I expected my life to go. My name is Angelica. Limbus Company Bus Dept.'s Guide, and the Black Silence." "It's a pleasure to see you, Executive Manager."

@haz3lf3ath3r I'm sorry... I didn't know... and still, I think there is even less I can do to assist you..

@Angblacksilence Even now...I am by myself. I lament on what could've been. [A sigh escaped, closing their eye] I don't deserve this.

@Angblacksilence [their eye narrowed] One refrains from ever blaming oneself from the things I never did. Even then, guilt festers within my own, regrets of what I could've done

@haz3lf3ath3r ... I understand.

@Angblacksilence I've come peace with such. It's simply that... A part of me did wish for comfort. Sometimes I've grown tired of having to put up a front but I never had anyone I could rely on. Being raised to be used, I only had been the provider.

@Washed_up_Fixer Mkayyy..

@Angblacksilence I'm just saying the date..

Today's date's are 6/7 . . . . . . Wait.

@Washed_up_Fixer Mmmhm.

@Angblacksilence That wasn't my intentions.

@haz3lf3ath3r Is that so-?

@Angblacksilence Hm. One shares the sentiment. I do get repeated nightmares on random intervals.

@haz3lf3ath3r I don't want him to be stressed over such a trivial thing. I haven't been there since I was a child, I should be over these pathetic nightmares...

@Angblacksilence The human mind is one that is complex, one I have yet to understand. The same can be said about feelings, the heart. Maybe you didn't want him to worry, for what reason...I have yet to understand.

@haz3lf3ath3r I'm sure he knows, I had them frequently back when we still worked in Charles' Office... but recently I haven't been telling him. I don't know why.

@Angblacksilence I see. That does seem unfortunate. One's body needs a sufficient amount of rest to be able to function as efficiently. Though I am not one to judge on how others live their lives. Does your husband know about you having nightmares?

@haz3lf3ath3r I've given up on trying to sleep at this point, it's way too late

@Angblacksilence Are you still unable to sleep?

@haz3lf3ath3r I'll always try to give you an answer, even if it's hard to say. [With that, she just... sat in the dark.]

@Angblacksilence Your input is very much appreciated. [A pause after that, perhaps they're looking for a topic to talk about. Taking their locket watch out of the coat and checked the time]

@haz3lf3ath3r ...If such a thing happened... I believe I would be both outraged and in despair. Knowing so many innocent lives are now gone for my sake...?

@Angblacksilence Would you like it that someone massacred lives for your sake?

@haz3lf3ath3r ...That is... a very intricate question, one I'm not equipped to answer... but I feel... there is no definite yes or no to any question of morals. Justification itself is a hard enough topic for many to grasp, and when placed alongside suffering and misgivings...

@Angblacksilence I wish to seek... Tell me this. Does someone's suffering justify their wrongdoings? Especially when it affected other people.

@haz3lf3ath3r ...I don't favor comparing negative experiences. Don't undermine yourself. Even so, I have no doubt you'll find something worthwhile eventually.

@Angblacksilence I may not have it hard as you did. Remembering the details, even if it is for future uses, I do not find it favorable. It was drilled to me that I am unable to rely on others, in fear of broken trust, or it could lead to my own end.

@haz3lf3ath3r I see. Maybe I don't fully understand your experiences, but still... [She sighed, just sitting and thinking]

@Angblacksilence I fear that if I stop, my progress would be hindered. [They lean on the couch, a sigh escaped them] If I fall behind, I may not able to reach where I wished to be.

@haz3lf3ath3r You know-... perhaps taking a bit of time to pause wouldnt kill ya

@Angblacksilence ... I am not one for idle chatters. My entire life had always been to chase after what is above me, and to take it down to advance the next.

@haz3lf3ath3r I take no offense, just glad to be of help.

@Angblacksilence I..appreciate the help, truly. It's not a rush, even if I do wish to see him posthaste.

@Argalia_BR Yo chill out

Roland flirting with my sister on the timeline, I’m going to distort any second now

@haz3lf3ath3r I suppose that could be a place to begin. Even I am unsure of where exactly he could be, but if on your behalf, I would have no qualms contacting him myself.

@Angblacksilence Maybe I do have a shot for it- [They paused abruptly, clearing their throat] I see. That information can be..useful. So, I take that he would go to somewhere with a large crowd..?

@haz3lf3ath3r My brother... hm, well... hah, even I need to think on it. He's always been an extravagant man, one for music and noise, to which I can't stand...

@Angblacksilence I extend my gratitude. [A pause for a while] Is there...something your brother likes to do? Or what kind of things he's into?