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Having no agency in my life is getting real depressing

March means the fundraiser for Humane Society Monroe County has started. I'm still brainstorming incentives and milestones, so come by the channel and help me out. Time to hop into Midnight. twitch//chickdrummer88

Officially my second birthday without you mom and I gotta say this shit has been rough. I am going to continue to try and be the man you always wanted me to be and do better than you ever imagined. But, I genuinely do not know if I can. I miss you so damn much.

I think one of the hardest parts about losing someone that made you feel special is finding out no one else sees you that way.

Wish I was dead

I love being told everyday that I am worthless and a waste of oxygen by someone who I thought was supposed to uplift me and there is no where else for me to go.

I dont know how to navigate this world without you. I try to surround myself with people who life me up but, it will never be anything near what you gave me. I miss you so much Mom. Im trying to be strong Im sorry.

Popping onto some @SWTOR with @BlueOhSnap twitch > chickdrummer88

Well its been a year and I cant say its been easy. I think of you every day and I will continue to. I love you so much Mom and I wish we could have had more time together but, the time we did have was amazing and I will never forget it. I love you to the moon and back.

I'm live for @Nelstar15 's 2025 WoW Raidathon for @StJudePLAYLIVE !! Come join in on the chaos and possibly win some prizes thanks to @RaiderIO_WoW and @kingscoast ! Donate here: tilt.fyi/3ZTCykQ4jY Watch here: twitch.tv/chickdrummer88

“Happy birthday Mom!”I cant express how much I wish I could say that to you but, I can’t. I miss you more and more everyday. Life is changing in ways I cant say Im happy with especially without you here. But, I know no matter what you would want me to move forward as best I can.

Our 2025 Humane Society Of Monroe County fundraiser starts today!! I'm hoping to hit my $1000 annual goal. Find out more about HSMC here: monroe-humane.org

Guess Im 26, today has been a lot of emotions.

We playin @PlayPhasmo with @Lulaboojenkins @ayoEnigmaTV and Jarathi!

Birthday strim is up! Starting off with the @R6esports @Rainbow6Game Siege Invitational while I get some coffee. Games for today will include Deep Rock Galactic, Phas, Palworld, and more! twitch.tv/chickdrummer88

I think happiness will elude me forever, I don’t think I was made for this world.

Tonight at 8pm HST, I'll be checking out @aftnareld 's Coridden with @SpawnRespawn . Thanks to @evolve_pr and @aftnareld for providing the keys! #ad

Falling into the depression again and I don't know if I care to come out of it...

I wish I could say Im strong enough to get through this but I really dont think I am

I just dont want to be here anymore