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late intro!! stats in bio, pro recovery (not for me though) likes: pop punk music, white girl 2010s music, crochet, classics, reading dni if under 16, anti recovery, racist, homophobic, etc feel free to dm me about anything!! always looking for new friends <33

made a discord server for the trans men with eating disorders zine project! come help iron out submission guidelines, a title, design, and more!! discord.gg/W5Hfq8ntY

@sealmath lmaoooo at least your memory will live on

@cigaretteofed i still see the mealspo/coffee+cig pics i took back then on random ass places online and it's such a weird feeling 😭😭😭😭😭 good times

everyone is doing this I want it too

@sealmath @jaein_bunny omg no way thats so crazy

@cigaretteofed @jaein_bunny hi omg so random but your pfp is a random pic i took and uploaded on pinterest when i was in like 10th grade 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i love u

@mattysnowpuff def anything made w wood!! wayyyy to high cal to be justifiable (including like tables and chairs and stuff, nothing w wood!!)

hi!! (anything except my safe foods: berries, skyr/greek yogurt, tuna, cucumber, oats)

@ghostivyleaves keeping food down isnt inherently stopping you from losing!! one and a half bagels is soo much less than what you would need to gain or maintain, and your body needs the energy

why do I do this I come on here and complain about my body but continue to keep food down this is not how it works

I had 1 and a half bagels today outside outside of a 4k cal b/p (small for me but purging wasn't great) which makes me filled with disgust and shame but I want to go eat more because I can more easily touch my pointer finger and thumb around my arm ? makes no sense

@mattysnowpuff im gonna say anything made w titanium. its soo unhealthy

it's almost July so I made this again! free to use :Dd

@ghostivyleaves i dont have it w me 😭😭 i should be able to hopefully on tuesday, if not then def next week

@cigaretteofed can I read it

hypothetically if i were to write a short story ab having an ed would anyone be willing to read it trying to improve my writing plssss

bitches scared of calories but then drink two mosters a day ok

@ghostivyleaves yeah no thats so stupid youre not being mysterious

@cigaretteofed oh right yeah that would makes sense but like bro just say 4 calories who do you think you are

I'm pissed just tell me how many calories it is wdym less than 5 I hate american nutrition info

Mental illness maxxing

@ghostivyleaves yes you do!! everyone always deserves a cig

I deserve this after my intense cardio

@ghostivyleaves :((

hope everyone is having a good fat fuck friday don't forget to be a fat fuck

@jellyfishbunny ooh ok!! ty <33

@cigaretteofed Tajin is like a “chilli flake” seasoning but it’s more sour/tangy than actual spice at all (I have no spice tolerance) and you can get low or normal sodium types

hot take i genuinely love lettuce even before my ed i would just eat a bag of shredded iceberg lettuce as a snack

@SolarMusicZ it wasnt from a restaurant it was from some random church event thing my dad went to :/

@cigaretteofed Yeah especially fried rice can have so much hidden oil, asian restaurants use tons of oil

guys im highkey freaking out i had my dinner all planned w macros and calories counted but my dad brought food back from a cookout (?) lemon chicken and some sort of rice how many calories are we guessing?? i couldnt calculate it hand for size

@SolarMusicZ stop thats so scary wtf

@cigaretteofed You never know how much oil they use. This could be anything between 400 and 800 calories

@mayssdiaryy i like a tuna salad!! tuna, cucumber, a tbsp of greek yoghurt, optionally some onion and/or lemon juice, around 120-140 cals depending on yoghurt, onion, etc. i like to eat it by itself or w a small tortilla if i need it more filling but it is alone anyway

Please can everyone give me there safe foods/safe meals I need inspo

@HoneyMerci88by that would be incredible!! i’ll post it publicly when i have access to it again (i wrote it on paper and im spending a few days away lmao)

@cigaretteofed I would love to read it! As a beta reader and critique partner, I can give you detailed, thoughtful feedback to sharpen your writing. Send it my way!

@Lemongrass_Herb it was so good!! i was planning on having the chicken and just half of the rice but i couldnt help myself :((

@cigaretteofed Idk but that looks BOMB. So yummy looking