sammy 𝜗𝜚 maintenance era

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@kcalzsa maintaining bmi 17 rn so pretty well, my maintenance cals r 1500 which feels like plenty. but while restricting i hold on via hopes and dreams 🥹

People below bmi 19 how do u survive??

80c btw 😒 like the audacity to even think of being that many cals

my diabolical dessert of approximately 1 tbsp of frosting and some reeses pieces

@princevonpurge ty 🫶 im maintaining for now but in june i will definitely try my best to be safe trust

@strwbcha Please stay safe, and make sure you keep up with vitamins and electrolytes

so am i underweight orrr?? ts is so unfair

@princevonpurge ohh ok tysm!! that makes sense. oh well i’ll hopefully be bmi 15 by august so i’ll be uw either way

@strwbcha I hope I explained that well. You are underweight plainly speaking, but within the percentile of your age, it's a [low-normal] percentage. That's why we are seeing 18 and under seem a "normal" bmi even underweight, it's percentiles, not just bmi

@souljahblossom unfortunately no but if i just maintain my weight for 2 1/2 years i will be 🥹

@strwbcha If you’re 19 yes 👏

also i need to be tested for autism officially still but im also terrified of bringing that up bc the first question is always why and like how do i explain without telling my whole life story 😭

sometimes i wonder if i have quiet bpd but im too scared to bring that up in therapy soooo

WHAT

i have a problem with fashion.. i love too much of it

i love heisei retro and mori kei but i also love downtown girl and casual but i also love himekaji and tsuyome gyaru but i also love coquette and clean girl and

im so terrified but last time it lowkey helped me bc i’d eat less in order to get better results on the scale those 2 days i was allowed to see it so idk

should i start weighing myself twice a week again? bc i almost spiraled this morning after weighing in at 90.3lbs when the day before it said 89 🥲 ik its just water weight logically and food weight from the day before but it made me freak out a bit

im so fucking fat forget the cookie thing i dont deserve it i need to lose more weight i need to be 35kg now but i cant fucking restrict during exams fml

time to bake cookies bc i deserve it! i can have 4 mini ones for 200c.. i might do that lowkey

guys!! my test was actually not that hard im so happy <3

wish me luck i have my huge test rn 🫶

@ray_3dtwt anorexia is so delicate with me im certain me almost fainting multiple times from malnourishment is just her gently putting me to rest 💗

#edtwt PLEASE i fucking hate #edtt

either no beach sunday or i wear my tankini sigh orrr i can take a ton of lax

i wanna go to the beach sunday so i wanted to fast on saturday but my friend wants to have a sleepover aughhh