DerekCAtHome

Week 1 - Body Improvement Club... Only got a few workouts in this week as everyone was sick but still managed to drop 3 pounds. Got some nice meditations in as well via the Calm App. Total lbs down 13. "One deep breath... if only I had taken one deep breath..." -dc-

@warriorkytana ouch that's rough

@DerekCAtHome lol I do have those. It’s my parents I can’t control cause they both blast their TVs at night

Beginning to understand why people quite quit & do substances after a lot of working. Currently want to leave at this moment cause of my workload all week especially today. 😐 I need money, and it’s the only thing keeping me here. My whole body/mind is stressed but functioning.

@TheRealElvisVA @_Dragajam_ congrats

Very much looking forward to voicing this snarky lil guy 😁

@warriorkytana tell ya what I will work on some sleep audios

@DerekCAtHome I guess it could be worse, but I think stress and lack of sleep are why I feel this way. Nothing is easy in this world I tell ya

Tomorrow, I'll be at the trans owned Outbox Gym in Brooklyn to kick off the 2026 Chessboxing USA tryouts. The program starts at 2 PM with a conversation on Thinking Sideways with Heather the chessboxer. Then I'll play a Chess Fit simul, which combines chess and fitness moves, so we can answer the age-old question: what's more odious, burpees, or the French defense? Then the tryouts begin! Come for a signed book and some chess, stay for the fights. ♟️🥊📚

@warriorkytana what a tough spot. I'm so sorry

@DerekCAtHome I have no choice at the moment. The job market is bleak where I live and there’s no way I can find anything above this currently. I also found out some things I shouldn’t know, but that’s what happen when given admin access. I really want to quit.

@VisualSounds1 awwwww

My mam finished the jigsaw I got her for Christmas!

YouTube now lets users remove Shorts from their feed completely

@VisualSounds1 love it. keep on and chill.

Just a chilled out video today I think. I’m getting a cold so I feel a bit rubbish. If it’s okay with you, I’m just going to draw and have a bit chit chat!

Put in the work. audiochan.com/a/T8T1b3OQKz8P…

Seek reconciliation always...even if it can only be achieved with yourself.

I'm glad my brother takes me seriously.

It's 5 30 am and yes I'm also wondering if it's worth it.... but if this is what it takes to change.... then yes it is. You can do hard things if you want it bad enough. So ... is it worth it?

The @Braves score 3 runs in the 8th to complete the comeback W against the Marlins!

Save a friendship.... ask.

@d1msum604 merci

@DerekCAtHome Happy anniversary!!!!

19 years.... seems unimaginable. I have no words for the joy I've been given. Happy Anniversary.

Gabor Maté: The parts of you filled with hatred, addiction, and self-loathing all deserve compassion. They came along to protect you. Most of us treat our darkest inner states like enemies to be defeated. The shame, the compulsions, the voice that says you're not enough. We want to cut them out. Gabor Maté sees it differently. "The parts most filled with hatred, the parts that are addicted, the parts that are even full of self-loathing, they all deserve compassion. They all deserve to be held and understood. And they all came along for a reason." That reason, he explains, is survival. When a child isn't getting their needs met or worse, is being hurt, they face an impossible situation. They can make one of only two unconscious assumptions about their world. The first: this is a terrible world, I'm all alone, everybody is against me. The second: there is something wrong with me, and if I work hard enough, maybe I can fix it. Which one can a child actually live with? "To assume that the world is that dangerous is just unbearable for the child. It's also turning the anger towards the adults against yourself which is a lot safer. It's not very safe to be angry with your parents all the time when you're 2 years old." So the child chooses self-blame. It's the only assumption that gives them any sense of agency. If it's my fault, then maybe I can do something about it. That self-loathing voice was a coping mechanism. A piece of the psyche that stepped forward to make life bearable. The work, then, isn't to silence or destroy these parts. It's to finally see what they were trying to do and to offer them the understanding they never received.