Recairo

Final remark: The worst part is that I think Im the problem I feel like I put so much effort into making other people happy but maybe it isnt enough I guess its true that people can only judge what you put out into the world and never the small things internally I feel broken

Do is “hey how’s work” or “how’s school” and it becomes awkward because nobody wants to talk about that And I don’t have the bubbly personality to be personable and im bad at talking So we slowly drift apart and don’t talk for months l I feel sick that I’m losing my friends

I wish I was better at maintaining my relationships When I hang out with my friends in person and we’re close proximity it’s always great but when they leave it’s so hard to keep up I feel like I don’t have much in common with them as we lead different lives The most I can

I play videogames that I dont even like to try to keep up with some friends but it’s so draining sometimes For those who don’t play games what can I do but send them reels or something but they dont check my messages for months I’m burning myself out by stretching myself thin

It already feels bad that I’ve basically almost lost contact with friends who already graduated or friends back home And when I try to reach out to some people they don’t respond for weeks This inevitable sense of loneliness and doom that comes ticking day by day is sickening

Even with my friends at college now I know it’s inevitable because they rarely keep up on social media and we don’t talk on there I feel sick to my stomach that I’m eventually going to drift away from my friends when we leave for postgrad Same goes for friends back home too

Life is good actually … I’m so fortunate to be where I am

Nowadays I find myself going to the library or central campus just to sit and scroll on my phone instead of at home because there are people out and about and it feels less lonely Picture: BOGO deal from ShakeShack

Today all my friends were busy so I sat and waited in my car by myself until the sun set

Twitter is bad for my mental health Goodbye

@hazel8433268432 Noooo

@sugarjammi Ricks horror game simulator

what can i vibe code for a crash out

I want to do something memorable with my life I want to do something that matters I’m sick of pretending I was practical. I was never responsible as a person in the first place. I’ll worry about realism when I’m old enough. I want to be selfish in the present and try

Please please please please please (I believe god will put me on the path that is best for me and if it’s meant to be it’ll be)

@fwdaniels Shinji kagawa

Humans lose the ability to see color when they discover shame

@hazel8433268432 Also get seven star berry flavor darts

@sugarjammi - courtyards game room - palace tang - bodega bros - ricks - canes

Ann Arbor Michigan

@hazel8433268432 Have three strong zeros in a row they’re quite the deal

@hazel8433268432 Excited to see the photos when they develop!